MY SWORD VS YOUR DAGGER

2010-03-28T02:36:00.007+08:00

moved back to yidah-out-loud.bs !
last one last one , i promise

2010-03-22T15:19:00.002+08:00

why did the hairdresser cut sooooooooooo F short ? !
i ask for trim only ! now i look like willy wonka
TSSSSKKKK im so F lazy to go to school .
nonono im not F ready to go to school

i ♥ REVIVE & BLITZZZ

2010-03-14T23:58:00.003+08:00

Dance is Clean

Say No to Drugs & Doping !

Danceworks was AWESOME ! fcuking crazy ! i totally love the atmosphere today .
& from my own personal opinion , i think saturday's group A have more good teams than on sunday's group B , which have lesser good teams . but sunday's group B good teams dance better than saturday's group A teams . erm you get i mean ? haha

hey jazz did quite great & BLITZZZ TOO :D OMG I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH LARH ! && MS CHUN TOO ! eventho zss didnt get any award , i think our performance is greatttt ! but yea , danceworks is freaking tough . total number of teams is 65 sia , then only 4 can get into next round ; TSK . compete with another 33 teams today & at the end only 1 team manage to get to the next round .

i totally love it when other teams krump & they are like REALLY KRUMPING ! it just gives me goosebumps & i totally love it to the max sia . . . ouh btw those 3 Nutz Crew are FREAKING AWESOME plus north vista sec , boogie bumpers issit ? ahh cant remember , gosh YOU GUYS ARE DOPE MAN

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO "SUNNY" RAZMI !

2010-03-09T18:31:00.004+08:00

i sound like one retard here 0.0
no longer mine but i treat him
like he is still mine .

gaahh rindu anak razmi
happy birthday to you sunny :)

okay lol this picture again :P
happy belated 18th birthday to my abang !
i just hope you will get into
the right path kay :)
love ya lots bro ~

&& HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE to ANTHEA ! :D
hehs hope you get some solution to get
over with that son-of-the-dick aite !
kekekek love ya gf ~

btw i got so many of my precious ones having their birthday on march . bro 8 , sunny 9 , anthea 10 . whoa , "cun2" uhk .
1503 , eva's turn . hehehe
i think prezzy on saturday give (?) , gatheringggggg

2010-03-07T00:18:00.006+08:00

as per usual go out on sat(s)=.= i realise every sat i will either go city/town/bugis :/ must explore other places now , too bored

paramore's concert is tomoro , or should i say today ? its kinda a waste i didnt go , but at the same time im not really a big fan of them like last time . i dont even know what's their new songs :/ && eva also not going . . . so i wont go !

since i wont go for the concert , i decided to treat myself something else :/ i cant believe i bought a Givenchy foundation & powder for over 130bucks . for something like a powder to cost over 130bucks is too NONSENCE for me . ahhh cb i dunno why out of sosososo many things i bought this - reason is i have performances & i wanna use my own powder instead of sharing . whatever whats done cant be undone , no refund ! bleah craps

&& i also bought this kind of "african" shirt which emy said it looks horrible , haahahahahahahahah

2010-03-04T20:00:00.004+08:00

my studies SUCCCCCK to the core . its only the beginning of the year , CA1 & my results is TOTAL SHIT ! i fcuking suck at this . ms leow said i prolly missed too much lessons . even had a chat with her about my studies & she wanna see improvement . improvement starting from my freaking attendance =.=

anyway over this few weeks , i learn not to do something . well not "not-to-do" but more of like "i-wont-want-to" okay whatever crapsss . so yeah ,
-i will never ever again go to town in shorts . seriously , cos i tot we were only going to hang ard tampines mall & i didnt expect to have a last-min plan . can you imagine going to town with Mango tee + shorts + gladiator =.= nnaaahhh no way thats too off for me to go to town in that :/ i'll never dress to town like that again man .
- ouh 1 more thing is i MUST NOT SLEEP inside the bus when im on my way to school =.= i slept inside the bus that day & in the end i woke up & found myself at woodlands instead of bukit panjang ZZZZZ

OMGOSH paramore's concert is this sunday . shud i buy shud i buyyyyy

primary 3 ID photo , AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA SHUDDUP !

2010-03-01T18:57:00.005+08:00

found this somewhere . . . LOL dirty alrdy
tsk i WANT MY NATURAL HAIR BACK lah , i want my natural curls up there

AIYA i just want new hair for now

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i took so many random quiz(s) at FB & search for characteristics about myself through horoscopes . urm bleahh you know what i mean . . . got a few from some sites & i think it really describes how i am

-modest person who may not seem very easy to approach in the beginning.

-You would surely need to be on your toes to keep pace with her ever-changing moods

-Down to earth. A reticient person, you do not speak much. It is not very natural for you to just smile and make friends.

-It is not uncommon for Capricorns to be arrogant and overbearing

-Capricornians tend to keep their ambitions to themselves, being rather secretive people by nature

hhhmmmm , i think that may explain to me why i think that im not sociable :/ see 4th point , not uncommon for capricorns to be arrogant & overbearing . im arrogant ? cis , cant believe it . i die die agree with all those 5 points above =.= but i dont want to be like that . . .

some people said that my face is always serious liddat . some of my new friends said that they looked at me & smiled . but what i do is ignore them / look away & "jeling"(dunno how to say uh) . tsk aiya i MUST SMILE MORE & BE SOCIABLE !

but im afraid people might think im so irritating or whatever ! ALAH WHATEVER LAH . K BYE ! eva not going paramore concert , i also dunno if im going anotttttt . furthermore , i only know their songs from the album Riot & All We Know is Falling . haha if i go concert , sure many songs i dunno sia . then just stand there listening while other freaks are singing their heart out

2010-02-25T16:34:00.003+08:00

hah , i look like a guy .
mcm Go Mi Nam tak farna ? :P

gagagagagagaaga heeeheeee happy cos i have a matching pair of Rasta beanie & necklace =.= okay i know you would go - " uh wtf ? so what ? " hah but whatever , im dieing to get other RASTA & UNION JACK stuffs from this place & that place & this place & that place .

lols , i wonder why im in love with these two flags . ZZZ unionjack is UK while rasta is ethopia . next is what huh yidah ? next singapore flag arh ? ! k lame

tsk , at the same time im also trying to find transformers necklace again . i lost my some-sort-of-a-transformers necklace since last year . i drew the transformers logo on my file using a chalk ; ahh wth me =.= i want A BIG BIG GIGANTIC TRANSFORMERS' logo sticker . i wanna paste it on my Art & personal file or anywhere else ! :P

so urm , school's been kinda okay . its really better :) but my studies still sucks . i need to be consistent . i need to sleep early everyday . i need to PAY MY FULLEST ATTENTION DURING BIO & POA LESSON . ah whatever im still thinking if i should go for paramore's concert or not . again , whatever ; i wanna look for my 3 beloved stuffs . okay WTH . .

Rasta-UnionJack-Transformers♥
this is how i roll

2010-02-23T23:32:00.003+08:00

every single school days i woke up at 5.15 in the morning .
every single school days i need to force myself to make my way to school from BEDOK .
every single school days i spend 1hour15min to school , 1hour15min back home .
every single school days i spend 3hours of my life going to/fro school .
i HATE math & POA , i HATE numbers , but i do LOVE $$$MONEY$$$
i dislike bringing back work from school that is needed to be done becausssse . . .
i know high chances i wont complete it & will do other unnecessary things instead .
i MUST NEED & FORCE MYSELF to be asleep by 9.15pm , in order to sleep 8hours =.=

everytime i woke up , i would go - " TTTTSSSSSKKKKK ! HALERMAK "
everytime im on my way to school - " *YAWNS* AAAARRRGGGHHH ! "
everytime ive reached school i would go - " UUUURRRGGGHHH FCUK "
everytime i get homeworks i would go - " WTF ARGH SHIT "

i need to manage my time well . i need to cut down on the time i spend bathing , but this goal is kinda impossible for me to "achieve" . im that type of person who spends at least 45mins , at most 1hour15mins every single time i bath . tsk , everyday im so tired . every single morning i need to drink coffee to make myself awake for lessons .

i totally hate my school life . i dont have passion in studying & i cant seem to develop that "passion" . my studies TOTALLY SUCK ! i fail almost all of the subjects . i think i deserve to be in Normal Acad or Normal Tech . then , i dont really socialize with my schoolmates . i just cant seem to communicate with them , even with my close friends in my class . nowadays i dont know what to talk about with any of them & just shut my goddamn mouth . people say hi to me , i only smile & didnt say hi back or something =.= so not friendly huh me ? i just have a thinking that i really dont like my school , my schoolmates are just some random strangers & overall it sucks for me . im kinda a loner in school , sometimes its good but sometimes it kinda sucks , big times . now im starting to miss my other friends more & more & MORE . aaahhh mane korgggg ? ! FRIDAY SATURDAY SUNDAY PLEASE COME FASTER !

gggaaaahhh seriously seeing all the faces in my school makes me feel like im gonna faint soon . hhmmppfff , i think because of this it makes me always eat & eat & eat . i ate too much chocolates today , EEE OMG TRANS FAT IN MY BODY IS INCREASING . omgosh better stop eating chocolates this month . ouh well , i guess what's that been keeping me ineterested in school is my CCA , hahahahahahahahah XD tomoro JAZZ ! hehehehe

okayyyyhhh its 12.10am now & im not asleep yet =.=
one day , i think i might just burst out everything that
ive been keeping to myself . . .

chinGAY

2010-02-21T15:16:00.005+08:00

chingay was nice :) not really fun for me , enjoyed more on friday than saturday . but still , i had so much fun :DDDDD post pictures on blog which i like only , hehehehehe more & MORE pictures at facebook . yea just telling eventhough i know you people wont go to my facebook to look at the pics =.=

ouh well chingay is over & i have MORE free time now . no more weekday practices , no more saturday practices . hmpf . . . . other than that , im soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo goddamn fcuking lazy to go to school . i havnt do my homeworks , especially POA . im so tired of studying man . really despise school . the environment , ALMOST everything i dont like . i only love my CCA . & yidah , you need to work harder for JAZZ man . i need to work harder man ! lol dance harder !

tsk , i wanna make changes to my blog .

my cards & lappy is back hahahah wtf man

2010-02-18T19:44:00.005+08:00

look at our faces ! hahahah kinda like it :P
like Lady Gaga got some lightning thingy across our faces
ouh can you spot me can you spot me ???? hahahah
somewhere around the right side of the pic & hair is kinda covering me LOLx

ouh btw i found my cards . nonono not found but its returned back to me . i already expect it , my mum is the one who took it . she took it & hid it cos she dont want me to go out on monday & tuesday (which is the CNY hol) & i find it like WTF ? hahahahahahah no wonder my mum wasnt angry when i told her i misplaced my atm + ezlink card =.=

as for my laptop , i dunno what exactly i do . i just keep on restarting to safe mode or some shitz then delete off 2 accounts then laptop is back to normal :D hahahahaha LOL wth me ! okay i think you waste your time reading this & im wasting my time typing this

tomoro is the Chingay previewwwwww then saturday is the REAL THANG :D i skipped today's rehearsal , im so tired+lazy ley . thank god tomoro im gonna be excuse from school cos of Chingay performance , no need to go for POA :P

&& talking about POA , just now i was nearly dozing off while scribbling something on my worksheet during POA lesson , mr teo scolds me & blah blah blah . i didnt know that i wrote "Lady Gaga" on my worksheet cos i was seriously sleepy & my eyes is seriously heavy , omg Lady Gaga ? that is so random sia & no link to POA man ! =.= so when i went to the washroom , i didnt know anthea read my WS . i came back , read what i unintentionally wrote , shocked myself & quickly erase it :/ i thought no one knew . . . . . then anthea came to me talking about the Lady Gaga i wrote =.= sialah pai seyh sia . okay whatever forget about this

hmmmmm this post have so many "hahahahah"

via E66 : am i being cursed ?

2010-02-16T13:54:00.005+08:00

i misplaced my card holder which i keep my a.t.m card and ezlink card in it .

My laptop is spoiled . I tried switching it on many times but it keep on restarting on its own :/ same problem as my previous laptop so i think its dead now . All i can do is to blog or surf the net through my phone for the time being

Im just so pissed . I lost my ezlink 3 months ago now i lost the new one again . I just paid for my monthly bus+mrt concession then my ezlink is gone . Wtf is this yidah ?

I havent complete watching korean drama 'you're beautiful' and yet laptop is spoiled . Btw farna , i only watch up to episode 5 yesterday & i think BOF is sweeter ! Haha .

Okay now ALL of my pictures in the laptop is GONE . Nehmind i dont wanna keep 2009 goddamn pictures . Eh but i still have some of my sec 1 pics ley . Ahh whatever . Looks like every year my laptop is spoiled . Bet mum not gonna buy for me anymore . Eee fcukx i need to share computer with my mum WTH

&& anyways , ive got one BIG fcuking blackhead just formed on my cheek . Bastard think i cant use certain foundation =.= pores and pimples wont get away , gosh im gonna blame the genes that is passed down to me . Argh go away you freaking pores pimples and blackheads or whatever

Overall , KNNBCCB . I think im cursed or something . I lost half of my valuables . Please stop it & ezlink+a.t.m card please appear right in front of my face now . Shucks i hate this , so much ! I got another thing to complain about !

I just found out you you you stole my quote . Isk , ill continue again once i get hold of the computer

treat this post as 14 February

2010-02-15T02:10:00.005+08:00

TOP GUN WAS AWESOME !

i was trying hard to show my top , which is beige colour on the left & black on the right , hah WTH me

brought farna to Uncle Ringo's funfair as her bday treat other than the cake that we bought for her & that "surprise" which she alrdy expect it . hah Uncle Ringo is kinda ex but still , its FUN & worth it :D enjoyed today , but ive got nothing much to say ; today is just nice ~ i love funfair , LOL

anyways , happy chinese new year to all (: hhmmmsxz i didnt get to perform at school for CNY cos of my stupid stomach cramp/problem . mum didnt allow me to attend school till she called my teacher :/ ggaaahhhh wah lao Dance Club sure hate me because of this sia

i wanna camwhore , havent been doing it FOR A LONG TIME . geez , i've got my camera & my ring . but camera wasnt satisfying , 7.6 MP only [=.= ] ! but at least ive got a LUMIX one . i dont know if my ring is a white-gold ring or is it a diamong ring . got what i wanted , now im only left with **** bin Razmi , bile mau dapat dier ni ? !

btw , holy shit stooooooooopid hot sunny days which tanned my neck =.= i shouldnt have worn v-neck shirt when i went to escape theme park that day . my neck so dark sia then the other part of my skin is light brown . fcukx i dont like to have my neck tanned . especially at the back of my neck cos i have short hair , dont like dont like dont like . OMG i dont like tanning =.=

ouh & im not done on my "Facts about Yidah"

i love talking about myself to myself on my blog

i cant believe this is me . ouh & i miss abang SM

2010-02-09T21:10:00.004+08:00

Facts about Yidah

- i dont twitter

- i dont watch television

- i only log in into my facebook to read my horoscope & get pics from others

- i RARELY post anything on my facebook wall
in fact it's been 7 months & i only update my wall post 2 times :/

- i delete my tagged acct cos i find myself boring

- i HATE it when anyone uses the word 'kesian' on me or anyone else or whatever
but i know its their mouth so i know i should just SHUT UP

- i dont online in MSN , i dont chat with the people there .
cos im boring =.=

- people say i looked EXACTLY like zairul & yeah we tell lies to others that we're twins . bbbbuuuuttttt , I DONT LOOKED EXACTLY LIKE HIM RIGHT ? I HOPE NOT 0.O & I DONT THINK I REALLY LOOK LIKE HIM

- i want people & in fact the whole world to know that IM SERIOUSLY FCUKING DIFFERENT when im 13 & those who knows me when i was 14 dont know how i am last time & im definitely a complete different person . I WANT THEM TO KNOW THAT THEY DONT FE-REA-KING KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT ME
okay maybe you know something about me , BUT NOT EVERYTHING . you only know ABIT of me . serious , i know myself more than you do

- i cant get over how good my life is when i was 13 in 2008 & hate my life now .
well , for now only . maybe i'll be happier later ?

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i dont want to freaking perform on CNY at school .
why jaiho sia ? sucha big difference , serious

sunflower days isnt the days when im with him , its just about myself

2010-02-05T21:52:00.003+08:00

browsed through all the photo albums in my lappy & found old oLd OLD pictures of me + others . whoa 2 years passed in a blink of an eye . i still cant believe im already SEC 3 now . omgosh i seriously fe-reak-king miss those times sia . not last year but last 2 years :DDD i had the best year when i was 13 . i serious shit hate everything when i was 14 , the only best part was SYF last year & the first half of last year .

i think i lost everything when i was 14 . i lost my charm ? ZZZZ ! i still remember i read my horoscope on one of the days & it says that MY SUNFLOWER DAYS IS OVER ! but even before reading my horoscope i notice some changes in me . not really me but something in me that makes people get to me just seem to fade away . then i think back ,
where's all the attention which i get from ALL of the people around me ?
where's all those approaches & "hi-es" from stangers ?
& whatever & whatever blah blah blahhhhhhhhh
did i change that lead me to this or is it just . . fate ? or whatever you call it .

i think i know i dont talk to other people first alot & i only expect them to talk to me first , & i think its kinda negative :/ people even said i always look stressed & give a wtf face to everyone . i notice i couldnt really talk to my schoolmates . dancemates , classmates & everyone in school , i just cant seem to communicate with them like how i communicate with my other friends & i dont freaking know why .

i actually felt really great when asyikin ask me about my life . i dont know but i feel so happy to share it . i know what people think about me & what kind of impression others have towards me & i think i just simply need to TALK .

but , im too egoistic . i expect everyone to make the first step instead of me trying at the very least to open up myself & socialize with others . i really want people to think im friendly y'know ! (OKAY WTH ME !) but i guess that's not me till you REALLY KNOW ME VERY WELL , haha .

i know you , you , you & YOU always read my blog

2010-02-04T13:22:00.005+08:00

ouh its an overdue pics , heh . went towney & had a date with farna to celebrate my 15th years of living :D

so urm , im actually kinda pissed off . yesterday , i was really hoping to get 2 days of MC from the doctor but in the end i got only 1 FE-REA-KING day =.= the excuse which always gave me 2 days of MC didnt work out this time , KNNBCCB . okay skip skip skip then just my luck to pass by hanafi when i was otw into school for dance(eventhough i have MC =.=) . tsk long story but AIYA wasted lah i didnt go for dance yesterday , HMPF ! but im having muscle cramps bet i will be having more difficulties if i go .

kkkkkk blah blah blah lazy to go to school today . im so sick of studying . i wonder how the heck those people who took triple maths can survive sia , zzzzzz

& btw , i think i need to do something to my hair . its getting worse . i feel like cutting it , BUT NOT SHORTER . trim it till all is the same lenght . bob bowlcut ? see below ! thats kinda what i want but i dont want that kind of fringe & definitely not as short as this , longer ? my hair is thick , but it's not thick enough now for this type of hair .

ggaaahhh look like DORA EXPLORER / WILLY WONKA liddat

ouh btw , i feel like talking about my life . tsk alah next post arh

happy birthday ayah

2010-01-31T15:44:00.004+08:00

not my stepfather but MY REAL FATHER
been months since i met him & only
met him on hari raya :/
eventhough i rarely see & talk to you ,
saiyidah sayang ayah bnyk2 okay !
mmg uh slalu saiyidah ayah mintak duit je ,
but when im older i wanna take care of
my father , i willllllllllllllllll !
& i think my family is kinda weird ?
im actually under my father's custody
but im staying with my mum . hah wth ?

alot more pics , but im just plain lazy .
ouhmind math & eng hw still not done yet , aarrgghh

suddenly i feel like not going for Paramore's concert

2010-01-27T01:02:00.003+08:00

I cant make up my to go or not to go for paramore's concert . I cant let go of my money :/
& i feel like asking for a new kick instead of a diamond ring from my aunt . But i still want a ring !

Via E66

i ♥ GUCCI RUSH & A.S

2010-01-21T18:07:00.003+08:00

PARAMORE HERE I COME
evanthea lets buy our tix together ASAP !
ahhh cant wait for PARAMORE'S CONCERT

ouh , im so happy i got my RASTA snowcap/beanie :D

2008 is my sunflower days

2010-01-17T17:25:00.002+08:00

i want back my sunflower days .
i want it back badly .
i think im nothing without it .

thanks for the wish y'all :D heh thanks for the treat FARHANA ! & that post too ! haha , & ZAIRUL ALSO ! lol . im waiting for my birthday card . . . heeeee JR i dont want anything , but a long birthday card ! haha ask my friend to wirte for me 500-word birthday card , siao ah haha kk 300-word ! nehmind 150-word ! im asking too much =.= ouh omg by next 2 weeks gonna get my bling , cant wait ! aiya lazy to redo my english project which needs to be handed in by tomoro

will i get **** BIN RAZMI ?

i dreamt my teeth broke , holy shit who's gonna die ?

2010-01-10T18:39:00.004+08:00

nah zairul , gi save smue gambar ni main jauh2 k ! hehe :P

joined chingay back , hmm can lah chingay just so-so only . 2009 is much much more fun & better . &&&&& GOSH , ms chun will be back by next week & i dont freaking know if i can cope in jazz . when ms chun was talking about the extras for hip-hop , carrying those banners & suchs i feel like doing it y'know ! EXTRA ALSO CAN LAH ! but then i remembered what Adella said to me & i think i should give jazz a try , heheheheheheeeee . furthermore this is the only year which i can participate in danceworks , this is the only chance so i guess i should just go for it ? JY YIDAH ! hahahahah FVCKX

tsk so fast its sunday & school starts again tomoro =.= i havent got my new sch schoes . fvckx i dont know what sch shoe i wanna buy , damn cant use my adidas kick to sch , nbcb . plus , i think school sucks , BIG TIMES . zzz im so alone in school & i just cant seem to talk to anyone & i feel im kinda anti-social & let my mood controls me . i wish everyday is friday , which i will get hyper with those in ZCC dance studio & do crazy things .

i feel like bringing a lunch box to school & eat in
class & at the same time revising my work or do my
work or anything & whatever . hmm good idea tak ?
all the best in school yidah

date should be friday , 8 Janurary

2010-01-09T01:55:00.005+08:00

i dont know why i find myself kinda different in school & outside school :/ i think im kinda quiet in school these days , but hey i was hyper just now talking with farhana + zairul & co . we jump , kick & do all sorts of crazy things like mad . but why not that in school ? cos school is not the right place to do that kinda thing =.=

ZZZ i mean , yeah it's just so different . even in dance club , i feel i talk more last time . now , my mouth cant open . others are talking laughing here & there while im just staring at all of them waiting to be told what to do next . i find myself sooooo pathetic lah . okay , prolly last time im always with amirah so i talk alot with her .

school is definitely way way not okay for me , as my previous blog post's title state so . its not okay for me in a way :/ sometimes i get a feeling that some of my teachers dont really like me just by looking at my face . the way they treat other student & me is just making me feel that way . but hey , i dont need that right , just need them to teach .

overall all of the teachers are so-so . im soooo used to the way cikgu aiman teach as she's been teaching me since sec 1 , now with cikgu ahmad im definitely not used to it . takes time yidah . but after having all the lesson , i think i just need to be consistent & come to school everyday & i wont have any problems . CONSISTENT YIDAH !

i realised the teachers whom i dislike last time , i seemed to like them more than the others now . i used to dislike Ms Pek & cikgu aiman , but now i really really really want them so much . Ms Pek is just gonna be my PE teacher , im just gonna see cikgu aiman every malay lesson on the next door haha !

ouh im wearing my favourite shoe to school & its not acceptable =.= tsk heartpain sia , had a hard time buying it , money spent on it then cant wear :P nehmind luh , wear it for dance . kinda wasted , only wore it for a week . if only im not late just now . you see , i was late so i had to collect my ezlink . go in BR , Mr Sng saw my shoe =.= but the way he talked to me as if he know me . he said - "this kind of school shoe not allowed ah . sch shoe must be like that (points to an acceptable sch shoe) . dont say i didnt tell you ah" ZZZ dont say i didnt tell you ? he DM whattttttttt , can just told me off or smth . maybe he knows that im dancing for ZCC so gimmi warning only :/ ahh whatever .

so , what i know now is that i hate school . FOR NOW ONLY . i think its moodswing . i just feel that way , but maybe my mind will change ? heh , ouh my class ! for now i feel that i cant really get along well with the whole class . i just find my class boring . i miss 1E4 08 / 2E4 09 ALOT , SERIOUSLY ALOT ! i miss each & everyone of my previous classmate sia .

i miss sitting at the corner & at the back .
i miss sitting beside JR & talk to her about my LIFE (i love it !)
i miss turning behind & chat with charmaine about her
life & *ehem :P
i just miss everything about my previous class .

gosh , hate school . Sorry zairul cant upload the photos now , i misplaced my USB . & damn you both farhana2 . pulled my shorts till all of the people in the studio can see bit of my blue underwear . my turn to do this to you soon k ! && i think im joining chingay back tomoro , haha WTH yidah !

pfft school is WAY WAY not okay for me

2010-01-06T19:36:00.001+08:00

i want more earrings puh-leez
i guess i needa bigger "earring-holder"

2010-01-04T17:24:00.003+08:00

psst first day is just okay . JUST OKAY . I cant believe i nearly fell asleep during bio lesson . Form teacher cant stop talking abt power bar =.= ! POWER BAR !

Then mdm zan put my name in for danceworks , she said she's giving me this opportunity just for me , JUST FOR ME ! I chose hip hop cos i dont think i can do jazz . OMG MDM ZAN IS THE BEST OF THE BEST ! XD

After months of learning & learn from other dancers , i realise hip hop didnt fit me 100% haha take this challenge ?

2010-01-03T17:44:00.004+08:00

i just got MY-MOST-WANTED school shoe :D gosh , i spent nearly 50bucks on Art materials . D&T & Home Econs dont spend that much sia . mum please come back home early , i want my transparent contact lens for school tmr & i needa buy the hair dye before SpiderMan 3 starts . ZZZ now it's 5.50pm & spiderman 3 starts at 6.45 pm . hmmm chop2 luh , havent watch spiderman 3 =.= that's why im soo excited .

anyway , im 90% physically ready for school now . but im not mentally prepared for school 0.0 i havent got my pencil case ! TSK ! & if only my school bag is a bagpack not a sling , i will be sooooooooooo happy + satisfied . but it's still okay :/ alah whatever

zairul ! sweet post sia , i love you kay ! i wanna say something about that post ! if there is anyone who dont like your attitude or whatever & ask you to change , dont take their words seriously aite . it's your life , i dont want people to control your life & i also dont want you to change just because someone dont like your attitude(if there is someone) . be yourself , i love it the way you are right now . eventhough i dont like you to shout those vulgar words whatever , i still accept for who you are . dont chnage because someone wants you to change , DONTTTTTTTT . dont let anyone control your lifeeeeeeeee ! IM REPEATING THIS I LOVE IT THE WAY YOU ARE RIGHT NOW !!!!!! but if it's you yourself who wanna change or WHATEVER , different stody lah . okayyyyy kkkkkkaaaaaayyyyyyyy i talk alot , i know . BBUAL BNYK JER YIDAH ! kkk love ya & meet sooooooooooooooon . REALLY must !

anyway , ive done some edit-ing for my blog .
UNION JACK all the way baby ~

2009-12-31T01:28:00.003+08:00

its 31st DEC !
time flies so fast !
lol pics up there is my sec 1 pics & before i type my 2010 resolution , i just would like to say that ; OMFG i miss my sec 1 moments or should i say my 13-year-old life . really , 2008 is my best year so far :D i dunno , 2009 is just plain boring for me . i love it when im in sec 1 , feels like im in heavennnn , things go right & so fun for me . 2009 hasnt been a good year :/ okay i still love 2008 . i hope 2010 would be the same as 2008 & not 2009 =.=

my 2010 resolution ! ! !
- DONT cut my hair shorter ! i dont want to cut my hair again 0.0 i keep on telling to the whole world since sec 1 that i wanna have long hair but in the end i cut it short :P

- lose weight ! i need to lose weight ! be on diet perhaps .

- spend lesser time dancing & spend more time studying . i still wanna dance but i think i should spend a lil bit more time on studies , I SHOULD =.= i wanna get better grades next year .

- eventhough i wanna spend lesser time dancing , i really wanna focus on MALAY CONTEMP practice next year . next year we will start to practice & get ready for SYF 2011 . OMG i wanna get gold sia =.= sec 1 + 2 + 3 all the way for SYF 2011 ~ okay shuddup .

okay i think that's all . another thing is , i kinda feel awkward when i turn 15 next year . i dont like this feeling . isk , just be quiet yidah . && kak suzi said she will get for me a belated birthday gift =.= tsk wth , hehe but i think i should go for Baby Phat kick instead of the white-gold ring since she wont buy for me a camera :( but i still want that goddamn freaking RING ! that's gonna be my first bling-bling , haha but still i think i wont take good care of that small thing . Baby Phat kick please ? & CICAK , haha forget about it ! but hey , i still wanna at least meet CICAK or smth . . . pleaseeeeeeeeee wtv yidah . having performance in 17 hours time . i wanna sleep now .

2009-12-21T14:25:00.002+08:00

gosh i feel like performing the same thing again cos i seriously dislike yesterday cos im sick + weak , stoooopid =.= & my hair really looks different in the photo :/ aiya yesterday fever , today kinda having fluuuuuuu . sickish like this i can still blog eh , heeeehee .

& i just freaking realised that its just 10 days away to 2010 & 13 days away till school reopens . i havent do my freaking english assignment & im freaking lazy to do it . time flies so fast , 12 days after new year , its gonna be my freaking birthday & i will turn 15 . SO FAST !!!!!! just feels so weird & i havent finish enjoying my 14-year-old life . urgh i feel like treating 12 Janurary like any other normal days & i dont know why i dont feel like hearing "HAPPY BIRTHDAY YIDAH !" from anyone , well if there is someone who's gonna do that =.= im just not looking forward to turn 15 ? :/ eee fvck . but im looking forward to get something .

i want a CAMERA (kak suzi belikan eh !)
& i want MUHD **** BIN RAZMI !
THESE 2 , PUH-LEEZ ON MY BIRTHDAY
ESPECIALLY THE SECOND ONE !
CICAK ! CICAK ! CICAK ! CICAK ! CICAK !

2009-12-21T01:58:00.002+08:00

had 2 performance just now , in the morning & at night -____-performance just now was totally . . . i dunno what to say but it couldve been better , like really BETTER =.=especially the morning performance , i can even daydream when im dancing , err not exactly daydream lah but my mind wasnt on the dance . err its just COCK-UP ! then , im having fever today . just today when i woke up & got ready , by the time i reach there , i FEEL SO GODDAMN WEAK , REALLY WEAK . hmpf , why did this fever came to me today arh , sial btol . my shoulder , back & head feels so heavy & my body is so warm & i cant take it in cold places .

i dunno what kind of sickness this fever is . early in the morning till afternoon it gets worse , REALLY WORSE till i cant really dance properly . then at night it got better & feel normal ? then now , after i bath , this fever seems to be coming back to me , WTF sia . now my shoulders are getting heavier also & my eyes are like BURNING ! grr body gets warmer again :/

ouh btw , thanks Cik "rock" for massaging(not sure of spelling) me just now , SYIOK GILER LAH CIK URUTKAN SAYE :D overall , today is just so-so . i prefer our night's performance than the morning . bboy was totally awesome ?

2009-12-19T16:33:00.003+08:00

tomoro's the performance , all the way guys XD heh
all these time , they are the ones who had been
listening to my nonscence about aboi & being
very patient cos i couldnt stop talking about
aboi to them during practice . haha thank you eh !
& to Farhana binte Yusoff , who is
my friend , my best friend , my sister
my mother , my girlfriend , my "listening ear"
lol almost everything ! always had a heart to heart
talk with you , more for me to say arh
okie I LOVE YOU GUYS TO THE MAX !
put up a good show together eh tomoro XD

went to chingay just now . errrmm i think paym's chingay 2010 is kinda more boring than 2009 =.= somewhat somehow . . . just feels its kinda not fun ? okok only ler . & we have an issue just now with some kwat(s) i know it myself , knew them since last year & im kinda pissed . the dance is kinda boring then some of the people there is sooo (insert word) , it makes me wanna quit =.= first day join then quit at the same day ? whatever uh , i know what's the real issue but well , he is also my friend pe & i just cant do anything about it . seriously i know whats it's all about so im just gonna forget about everything & bleahh

2009-12-17T12:25:00.005+08:00

that's Adella , but not sure of the spelling . met the contemporary dancers last 2 weeks & I MISS THEM ALOTLOTLOT ! adella said not to give up if there's any other opportunity like this & not to waste it XP hehes

ouh btw , think i wanna go for the christmas gathering on 23rd . but i dont know what presents to buy for them & im kinda short of cash now . & last thing i wanna ask is , is there any shops around yew tee area which sells at least 1-2kg of prawns at around 6PM ? i keep on thinking the market would be close by then & most prolly the prawns will be sold out at NTUC or whatever . . & the other thing is , if i were to go ,

im coming from the east side & i find it
kinda ridiculous for me to bring a plastic
bag full of prawns inside the BUS & TRAIN
from the east side all the way to the west .
confirm SMELLY RIGHT ? ! =.=

2009-12-15T13:35:00.002+08:00

if i want it to happen , i gotta
put in effort , gotta commit &
not to depend on the other person .
he did alot & now it's my turn to
prove him that im not what he thinks ,
heck care about him .
its been a year & i finally get to
in contact with him back .
ive never ever want "something" badly
before , i want it & I WANT IT .
i keep on thinking this is the chance ,
it's either i take this chance ,
or just leave it .
okay , this thursday =.= jgn lariiiiiiiiiiii

anyway , i notice something about my previous 2 post .
the sunday post should be saturday & the saturday
post should be friday . haha i think i reached home
late = update late :/ hmpf , i hope emyth get those
4 things which i ask him to buy when he's in vietnam ,
erm which right now till friday then he's back =.=

2009-12-13T00:57:00.013+08:00

i dont know why i like to do my hair like that these days . i keep on pushing back my fringe & show my forehead =.= okay wtv , alrdy got the _________ , i just need to find a plain bag so that i can sew it . or maybe ask someone else to it . im also getting a ________ pencil case & this shoe for school . omg cant wait to get $$$ from mum dad then i shall shop for school stuffs .

btw i like today , haha if not gonna home ard 7.30 . reached bedok , last min plan with zairul . before i took the bus home from bedok interchange , zairul said he wanna go to east coast park . then i was like - " OKAY lets go ! " took damn lots of pics . but zairul your pic with ______ i didnt upload , if you want me to upload then i upload eh . LOL Zairul TWINNY , we were lying down looking at the stars ( or is it called star-gazing or smth ? i forgot ) then i suddenly remembered about this fire thingy from outer space which dropped on earth . aiya hard to explain , 2012 shows it . LOL did i saw a shooting stars just now ? haha its like , but it travels such a short distance , haha it's an aeroplane uh yidah

MORE & MORE PICS
GOSH , PHONE CAMERA IS SO NOT GOOD
WADDYA EXPECT , 3.2MPIX ONLY =.=
LOL kak suzi , my birthday buy for me 10.1MPIX camera eh !
diamond ring no need ! hha but both can ?
btw , someone said i looked like a pelacur / whore in some
of the pics . wtf eh fvckx , kurang asam sak

2009-12-12T02:03:00.009+08:00

LOVES <3
MY HAIR IS KINDA FLATTTTT

WTF ! ive just typed out & after ive upload some pics , all vanished ! ALL WENT AWAY ! tsk anyway , some things happened today . but emy just called me & explain everything , whoaa okay im so relieved now =.= anyway , today's kinda tiring . lol this is so random but yeah , today's practice was one of the most tiring ones out of the other days ZZZZZ okay random . 3 performacessssss , GO GREEN event ! haha

hmpf , he didnt msg me . he asked me to text him after ive finished bathing just now ....... but then i didnt text him =.= i think im kinda into him , yea into him like one goddamn mad person . but i dont know the fcuking why i cant bring myself to talk to him first . im always expecting him to talk to me first , always . alah dont wanna repeat the same mistake againnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn . aboi jgn lari okeh ? cicak nk jumpe . " i miss you alotlotlot " , haha yidah nk aboi ckp tu lagi bleh ? hahahahahaha bluek get over it yidah =.=

ouh , pictures taken just now (: MANY , SERIOUSLY MANY people said i looked like zairul . nono , its supposed to be he who is the one who looked like me :P ZZZZ & i wanna thank NURFARHANA BINTE YUSOF for doing that XD maybe if she didnt do that , i wont get in contact with boi again . haha TERIME KASIH BNYK2 ! I LOVE YOU FARNA THANK YOU SO MUCH , GAZILLION THANKS ! ! ! & dont take it to heart taw , about my previous post tu . . .

2009-12-11T00:43:00.003+08:00

haha okay just rebonded my hair with Z twinny just now . whoaa , last few days so confident that im gonna take pic with Z with our "new" hair , at last i didnt even take any pic today =.= confident nah nari nk gambar , skali tak petik satu gambar pun nari . ape sia member =.=

anyway , im seriously embarassed just now . thank godness im wearing one of my favourite ______ today . red colour okay , it has some bling2 on the side . haiya , sibeh aku malu siol nasib tngh pakai ______ favourite aku XD dah dah Z & F duduk2 diam-diam jgn nk bbual nie in front of me eh . go erase your memory ! haha okay thats one of my greatest confession XP

other than that .................... im seriouly HAPPY GILER NAK MAMPOS TO THE MAX MCM NAK MATI about something which happens today . tapi yidah , jgn nak confident sngt . skali dapat tau something which i didnt expect , dah heartpain =.= but i hope F did not do that cos she dont want me to be .... L ? alah wtv

HAPPY MAHA HAPPY NI !

aboi , jumpe i eh
dah dah jgn nk confident sangat lah yidah ! =.=

2009-12-09T17:26:00.002+08:00

out of the blue , my mum said today we are going to buy my school books . i just finished bathing & was getting ready to meet zairul first then this mother of mine spoils everything , REALLY EVERYTHING ! my heart just went , KRAK DUSH ! she didnt even tell me earlier or the day before or whatever ! ive already told her i got dance prac everyday this week ! & yeah she didnt continue nagging at me when she remembered that ive already text her about my dance practice . so yeah i mean , I HAVE ALREADY TOLD HER ABOUT MY PRACTICE & SHE DID NOT INFORM ME EARLIER THAT TODAY WE ARE GOING TO BUY MY BOOKS . SO I DONT FCUKING KNOW , she should inform earlier pe ! alah neh minds , its not good to do this to my mum :P OKAY WHATEVER ! alahhh im just kinda pissed of lah cos i was so happy today im going to rebond my hair & no more stupid stubborn short wavy curly hair then it all vanish !

lols , as if there's no tomoro huh yidah ? SO YEAHZZZ our plan still continue ! continue to tomoro ! if tomoro cock up again , tsk heartpain sia =.= im using my own money to rebond my hair , ive also used my own money to highlight my hair :/ omg ayah & ibu didnt give me $$$ to spend on anything i want this month . OUHMYFREAKINGGOD ayah ibu please gimme so much $$$ to buy a wonderful _________ school bag & school shoes ! urgh , hope that i will get what i expect , hope so . . . i will die die ask my mother to pay for the bus concession later XD i dont wanna top up cash , i use $2.68 everyday for this week from bedok took 2 bus(s) & LRT to get to freaking bukit panjang + going home summore ! =.= ZZZZZ okay stop complaining wtv .

millions of sorry to farna & zairul , omg im sucha spoiler & i feel like ive pai tao them sey , SORRRRRRYYYYYYY ! hmpf , now i just need alot of $$$ + im hoping some shops in SG that i know is selling __________ bag , omg please seyyyyy i want it badly !

2009-12-09T01:53:00.002+08:00

OKAY im updating through my phone now , just a quick update to complain about my hair . Yeah serious shitz it look so horrible , SO HORRIBLE , VERY HORRENDOUS . I think if you were to see it , you're just gonna - 'eeeewwww !'

So , im gonna reborn my hair with 'twinny' tomoro or should i say later ? Ouh i think you're gonna be shock who is my 'twinny' =.= confirm plus chop i will upload photo ! I think uhhh . OKAY , so bye bye naughty curly stubborn hair !

2009-12-08T15:00:00.007+08:00

i was watching this "old" movie at some malaysian channel yesterday & found this small kid actor so familiar haha . LOL realised it was Taylor Lautner , haha he acted in Sharkboy & Lavagirl when he was little & i dont even know it till yesteday zzzzz =.= he changed alot , he's so petite when he was a kid -_____-

hmpf i havent been updating much eh , even my personal blog i didnt update . 1 pathetic post only , sssooooo pathetic & i dont really "gossip" in that blog , i was just talking about myself ? my life ? whatever . im just starting to feel to update this blog again , just feels so . & i think im getting bored of maplestory already , its getting harder & harder to level up ZZZZ . i just feel like updating a short post now , going all the way to the
west side later for practice & for the rest of the week , what a life ! i still havent do my english assignment , cos before this i was so confident that i will get CHIJ so i dont need to do my eng assignment . Dec is already here & im not ready for school , TOTALLY NOT READY . i wanna buy ___________ school bag but it cant be found anywhere in singapore =.= well maybe there's some places selling it but i dont know ? aiya dont care ! i will customize !

GOD , PLEASE LET ME FOUND THAT BAG
THAT I REALLY REALLY REALLY FCUKING
WANT IT ! OMG PUH-LEEZ LAHHHHH

:( but i think some people might think the bag is kinda craps ? or smth ? but hey , i LOIKE IT ! & I DONT CARE !

2009-12-06T18:35:00.002+08:00

FFCCUUKK , SHITZ ! I LOVE

THIS PIC SOOOOOO

MUCH ! WOOOOOOO

KRISTEN S. IS SO PRETTY
OKAY I LOVE THESE 3 AHHHHHHHHH

2009-11-28T23:45:00.005+08:00

wont update this blog that much .
my gossips & other ramblings will just be
posted at my other blog cos i
wanna KEEP ALL THESE SHITZ TO MYSELF ,
i talk about this person , the other
person tot im talking about her , WTF right !
so yea im just gonna keep it to myself
& i dont wanna share my "wants" with
certain people , to be honest =.=

TSK DALAM HATI , DENDAM MAHA DENDAM .

&&&&& kak suzi ,
that diamond ring for my birthday can ?

ARGH

2009-11-24T23:25:00.004+08:00

fook , wanna upload some photos & this blogger is giving me problems :/
just wanna share some pictures of a school bag that i want you'know .
aiyya cant wait to buy the bag , gonna be awesomeeeeeee FOR ME haha
anyway , i was planning to b!tch about something but this blog thingy
spoils all my mood , im so lazy to upload photos to photobucket to get
the code =.= ouh well , tomoro im gonna gossip all my heart out
i dislike , i HATE IT =.= ! i totally hate it & been keeping it for a
long time so now I DONT CARE I DONT GIVE A DAMN , IM JUST GONNA DO
ANYTHING WHICH GOING TO MAKE MYSELF BETTER =.= lol you're prolly gonna
know it tomoro . . . or maybe the day after tomoro ? stay tune b!tch .
long stretch of dirty words specially for you

2009-11-17T22:08:00.002+08:00

i dont know what the hell is wrong with blogger/internet on my laptop and im kinda force to blog through my phone now . I think my internet is kinda 'sort' when im playing maple and at the same time opening IE . Even my background colour changes and i dont know why i cant fcuking change it . So pissed lah ! Then the website cant freaking load till i open so MANY tabs and make it worse and the WORST-EST thing is i cant fcuking close it =.=
Anyway , i get E4 hahaha my dream came true XD now i need work hard on ART and math . Lol yesterday when im posting about my dream getting into E4 , i dont even remember that the next day(which is today) is the results day :P anthea shock me and wake me up at 12noon just now telling me what class im in . Haha then i went to check to confirm and there's pop up or whatever shit that make me cant view it =.= whoaaa anthea , you seem to know i will forgot about results day and my laptop wont show the results eh , haha such a coincidence ? xD

Hais , life is so boring . I spend most of my time playing maple , at least 3hours and at most 12hours =.= everyday play maple , vacuum the house(i hate it) , fetch my younger bro from school(kinda like it , first time !) lol but i think dec gonna be abit pack ? Cos having performance i think , hope we are still performing ! ! ! && i think my eyesight is getting worse cos i spend too much time staring at the screen :/

Fyi , i wanna chiong to level 70 now ! Im still level 67 =.= priesthood here i come jyjy yidah XD hahahahahaha

2009-11-16T19:20:00.003+08:00

heh , FAKE eyelashes up there ^^^^^ . i wanna extend FAKE eyelashes . but i think 60 bucks for 2months isnt worth it :/ aiya dont waste money , fake eyelash isnt that obvious tho .

last 2 days (if im not wrong) i dreamt that i went into 3E4 . i got a feeling that i will get 3E4 , im confident i will go either E4/E5 :D i dunno why i always used to think that dreams will come true the opposite in reality . but these days , some of my dreams do come true , LOL . i dreamt that i didnt get CHIJ Katong Convent , true enough i didnt get it =.= so upset . then few days ago i dreamt about me & mother buying nasi lemak , haha then when i woke up , my grandmother ask me to eat the nasi lemak that my mother bought , hahahaha wtf . but erm , if i go into E4 , i gotta work hard for ART

for the last time , i promise , im still not over it AAAAAHHHH
lemme just get this out . i just wanna tell that its not that i cant do contemporary ! i can , maybe ? i am just not ready for it dammit . okay one day i will try back contemporary , of cos arh learn the basics first :P okeh im done , kinda satisfied .

2009-11-14T15:42:00.005+08:00

im still not over with
my wednesday's drama

i cant accpet the fact that i actually CRIED that day . i cried in front of MANY people . i cried in front of those dancers . i CRIED in front of VOUGUELICIOUS ! i CRIED SO BADLY in front of IZZY ! that is just so goddamn fcuking embarassing , REALLY EMBARASSING . & i also cant forgive myself & forget about the incident . half of me knows why i cried and the other half just dont seem to get over it .

okay YIDAH ! you cried because yeah , you cant take it anymore . yidargh ! you should understand yourself that its your first day contemp , NOT THE FIRST WEEK NOT EVEN THE FREAKING 2ND DAY . first day of a dance practice which you are NOT FAMILIAR WITH & YOU DONT EXPECT IT & YOU DONT EVEN KNOW =.= of cos you cant expect much on the first day , this is contemp , not hip hop not malay . this is a fcuking genre of dance which i NEVER IN MY LIFE tried it before & YIDARGH you cannot expect too much of yourself . just that the modern dancers there seems to catch up more it makes me feel so pathetic . really pathetic . imagine you are trying a genre of dance which you have never tried before & you DONT EXPECT IT . & one more thing yidah , you are learning the choreography itself , you are not learning from the basics . its like you are learning ballet choreography straight away WITHOUT learning the basics first , of cos its a total hell . its not hip hop which you can catch up within a day . contemp needs MUCH MUCH MORE skills . get over it yidah , damn .

but thanks to you guys at there that day too , for encouraging me & also izzy who pulls me up . kinda regret cos i didnt get to say what i really wanted to say to izzy . i dunno why when i was talking to izzy , i couldnt stop sobbing . REALLY tears just flow through & i couldnt stop myself . ouh izzy , im so sorrrryy cos i didnt respond you during the practice & made you mad . seriously during the practice , it was my blur-est moment till i cant even respond to your simple question & look like one goddamn freak . i do feel that i should not back out & WORK DAMN HARD when izzy told me about him dancing for the NUS or some sort like that . but also , i feel that 15 min choreo is long & of cos MANY STEPS . yeah like i said , 2 weeks to learn a 15min choreo of a dance which you never tried before . of cos its too much for me to handle & i dont want pressure-rized myself more . you know , besar pasak dari tiang , apape lah tak ingat arh

our mouths are so light when we just talk . but it weighs so much more when you yourself do it . okay maybe you just dont understand my situation till you yourself get into that freaking situation . & i will take their words & advices . they said im only 14 & i have a long way to go . even my horoscope has links to what im going through & it says that its wise to walk an unfamiliar path . maybe going through this incident is one of my "dancing" journey . ive experienced it & ive taste how it is & im happy that i get to see the "outside world" & go back home with advices & encouraging words from other dancers & leaders . argh btw ive got some things to update tooooooooo

1) i told my mother i quit the dance & she said - " good lah you will not be out " bastard sia . grrr she dont support me in what a like , what kind of mother is she =.= kk i know , just appreciate her & blah blah blah CME

2) went to chij KC to apply to that school but NA has no more vacancy , WTF sia . again bastard . i dont know which other school to choose . now i have to make my way to school from the east side all the way to the west side , WOW

3) i wanna watch ALOT of movies . i wanna watch paranormal activity & 2012 & jennifer's body ! but im not 16 yet , dammit

2009-11-13T02:22:00.002+08:00

argh i cant sleep . Tossing and turning since just now . Im still fully awake and im just blogging through my phone to kill time .

Shucks im still thinking about wednesday's incident , i havent get over it yet :/ durh i should go to sleep right now

Btw , not bad blogging through phone eh , first time . Dont waste electricity haha i should blog through phone now XD wait , i usually type whole long paragraph . My fingers gonna crack if i type whole stretch of paragraph through my phone . Urgh wtv nites people . FYI , i kinda like doing a quick update late at night in my bed :D wtf ?

long story

2009-11-12T19:18:00.003+08:00

yesterday's dance was totally unexpected , REALLY UNEXPECTED for me . i join yesterday & also quit yesterday . came there to join the hip-hop group but too bad the position-ing has already been done for the dancers & full . if i still join , im gonna make some trouble for Aliff cos he will need to arrange the dancers again . the only one left is contemporary dance cos breaking is hard , i cant do handstand & other stuffs :/ contem dance practice yesterday was a total hell for me as i dont have any background dancing of modern dance/ballet/contem itself . it really pressure-rize me cos the dance is like kinda mixture of ballet/modern & chinese cos we are using fan . the worst thing for me is that we need to pivot ? not sure but its those turning thingy , need to turn 2 rounds & i cant even do 1 round smoothly .

its really hard for me as those dancers there are experienced dancers in contem/modern & yesterday was my first day trying to dance to contemporary . FIRST DAY !!!!!! OMG , i havent even learn the basics yet & i had to learn the dance right away ! of cos i feel so fed-up of myself cos this dance is the HARDEST for me . never in my life i had a VERY HARD time in dancing . but i cant expect too much on the first day right , but see-ing other modern dancers , i feel that im just spoiling the whole dance . its too tough for me till i forgot ALL the steps & cant even remember a thing .

at last when i really cant take it , i broke down in front of all the dancers . i cried like hell like on the day when i know about the SYF result , but more worse . i kept on tearing throughout the day/night cos i think this is the greatest challenge for me so far . i have never ever had a REALLY HARD time dancing in my life , not even in school . well , sometimes i do have a hard time dancing in school ; even malay contem was kinda hard but yesterday was like 12921873872356345 times more harder . i quit at the end of the day & kinda satified cos if i were to still go through it , it will be a total hell for me .

i dont think i could make it cos the performance is in 2 weeks time & the whole dance is 15mins . dancing for 15 mins , OMGGGGGGG i never dance for 15min non-stop before =.= 15min choreography to learn & perfect it within 2 weeks , of cos i know it myself that i cant make it cos im not a modern dancer i cant possibly learn everything & perfect it within 2 weeks . 2 WEEKS you know ! 2 weeks is so short & i dont have any modern dance experience summore . & i think that it is better for me to back out cos if im still in , i will be handling MUCH MUCH MORE than what i can handle .

apart from that , the dancers there ARE SO GODDAMN SWEET . when i cried , all of them said many encouraging words to me & OMG , i feel so . . . alah dunno how to say it but it really touched me . they gave me a hug & i feel so welcomed , you know like . . . aiya i dunno how to say this :/ but they're greatttt , VERY SWEET ! there's one girl who said that she will guide me all the way & much much more & say that i can call her if i need any help , hah so sweet lah . then talked to Izzy & sort of pull me up again & make me feel that i should not let this challenge affect me & make me lose interest in dancing cos my strenght is not contemporary dance & i should concentrate on malay & hip-hop which i have more interest in .

gosh , i touch a genre of dance which im not familiar with & it really affects me alot , like really alot . but yeah , i should concentrate on my own strenght . i cant really handle yesterday's contem most prolly because i didn't expect it & i wasnt prepared to dance contemporary . omg yidah , yesterday is your first day of contem & you cant expect much . eventhough the other dancer could adapt to it is because they are experienced in contem & are familiar with it . yidah yidah yidah yidah you havent even learn the basics of contem & you didnt expect it so that explains everything why you are so pressure-rized(?) , seriosuly yesterday i could not stop tearing till today my eyes are so sore .

overall , this has been the greatest challenge for me . if only i had join earlier , i could've join the hip-hop team cos i already learned 10-8s of the dance & hip-hop performance isn't as long as contem , so lesser things to learn ? look how long i've typed about my feelings & ramblings . actually , i think i still have alot more to say but i think i should just stop here & stop my ramblings . im gonna play MS now . im so free this holiday , im thinking os working but i dont know where :/ those dancers i met yesterday are one of the nicest people ive met so far , I LOVE YOU GUYS TO THE MAXXXXXXXXXXXXX , just wanna say it eventhough i know you guys are not reading this XD && i wanna go dance club outing to sentosaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

2009-11-10T21:39:00.004+08:00

town with anthea today , then off to bugis & meet emy to buy his tie durh =.= window shop(ed) today . i think i want alot of things , seriously ALOT . went to Adidas outlet but new adidas dress "havent come yet" . haha but i'll buy things for wild2wet/sentosa first . didnt go to bugis for a long time alrdy & things there are getting cheaper or whatttttt ? & some of the clothes there are no difference with topshop/forever 21/whateverr & it cost like half of it ? alah wtv hard to explain :/

i want SLIPPER HEELS !
i want ZIPPER DRESS !

lol realise i didnt update much these days . i did on the com but i played MS all day , hahahahah . MS fun okeh , im still lvl 63 ( okeh shuddup if you think im still a noob ! ) do party with me :D - id : soulsister (aquila)

ive been thinking for a long time . after a week i think im gonna join this dance . i know that all those dancers there are HELL GREAT but emy really push me into this dance till i feel that maybe i should take this as a challenge to improve myself , improve my dance ? hope i wont have a freaking bad time as im expecting . lol think i will need to work alot for these 3 weeks , seriously ALOT cos i missed out alot of things . okay bye , off to 7-11 with bro now to buy my water bottle hahahaha

random ramblings - i think my hair is spoilt
now cos i just highlight it :/ & i think i need a
new profile picture , gonna keep the pictures rollinggggggg

2009-11-05T01:05:00.004+08:00

i still cant find my usb , ZZZ . i missed CIP cos i was late , then
went to "old woodlands" to do something & kinda happy :D
&& i wanna chiong to lvl 65 ASAP ! ! ! ! ! !

ouh i got a lot of photos of upload , damn usb is missing :/

i asked for it , & now it's here WWWOOOOOWWW XD

2009-10-30T23:30:00.003+08:00

i lost my ezlink & POSB card .
both cards is in a card holder .
i got no cash with me now & all
of my money is in my bank .
since my POSB is lost , i cant withdraw .
WTF sia KNNCCB . i still have 1 more
week of bus + train concession in my
ezlink card . because of this , i have
no mood to blog about today's TRICK/TREATS .
aiya bacause i have no cash now that's
why im so worried how the hell can i go out .
mum/dad dont give me cash :/ all "transaction"

2009-10-28T23:24:00.003+08:00

my tagboard is giving me problem , i'll reply to all tags sooooooon ~

finally blogger is back to normal . it's giving me problems since the last few days , hahahhahahaha finally i can blog :D firstly , my performances . ouh all went well . last wednesday's performance is okay , LOL but i find it kinda pathetic cos we need to dance on the ground . JaiHo performance on saturday is also okay , haha i had a bad hair day on that day . after jaiho is the hip hop performance for a pathetic event =.= , aiya all okay ler .

& the thing is , i misplace my USB & i cant
freaking upload the videos & pictures

okay now , it's about me ZZZZZ . time flies so fast , REALLY FAST . school is going to be over tomoro/friday then we have 2months break then here comes 2010 then 12 days after new year , im going to be 15 . SSSSSOOOOO FFFFAAASSSTTT i havent enjoy my 14-year-old life =.= also , looking back , so much things happen this year for me . from family to friends to myself . i sorta realise things happened for a reason . i look back & feel that what has happen is "sort of for my own good" , things could have been much much more worse if i want it all to be my way . WELL REALLY =.= i just think that whatever that has happened in the past has it's own reason for happenning , eh what shit am i talking 0.o aiya just try to understand :P i just felt relieved that even the most worst matter that came up is for .............. wait i dont know how to say it . . . is for the best for me in the future ? ? IM JUST TRYING TO SAY THINGS HAPPENED FOR A REASON ; OKAY BYE I FAIL MY ENGLISH SO THAT EXPLAINS EVERYTHING

& i cant wait for HALLOWEEN !

2009-10-15T14:01:00.003+08:00

went for break fast at lot one after my last paper .
we , the RED INDIANS played at the playground & OMFG ,
so fun lar . i thought of uploading the video but hearing
my own laughter which is so - 'stop it eh' , i don't
want , hahahahahhahahahahha yidah laugh like shitz

finally exams is over , FINALLY ! ! ! but im so worried right now , you know it's like you're not at ease every moment . i keep on thinking how my reults would be . if it weren't for 'this' matter , i wont even care about exams / results & whatever . because i really really really wanna go there , i need somewhat good result & as i know my standard too well , i doubt that they would take me . but im really really hoping that i would get what i want . it's my future =.= if i don't get it , i must make use of another 2 years study hard for my O's to get into TP . hope i will get fair or good result to get into that place . . .

my neck hurts alot cos i keep on looking down . revising my work , i look down ; doing my exam papers , also look down =.= i have no confidence for Maths , Science & History . i make silly mistake for home econs . i think i will fail 4 subjects :/ LOL should not think that wayyyyyyyyyy =.= im starting to get angry at almost EVERYTHING nowadays ,

1 - i dont like it when people try to spot my mistake when I AM ALREADY AWARE OF MY OWN GODDAMN MISTAKE . well i think you should know , it's like i already know where i had gone wrong & totally aware of my mistake , then people would say to me like - " eh you wrong you wrong " i find it like SERIOUSLY SHITZ FRIGGIN' IRRITATING =.= ! ouhmyfreakinggod , EXCUSE ME i know what my mistakes is & can you please just MIND YOUR OWN FCUKING BUSINESS & SPOT YOUR OWN MISTAKES ? =.= ! i just dont like people who wanna spot my mistake when actually i know it myself where i had gone wrong ! ZZZZZ

2 - i hate it when people starts to get violent on me . LOL not fight lah but as in like talking talking talking then a person hit me . well , not smacking my back or pat my shoulders real hard , IT'S HITTING MY HEAD DAMMIT . i know sometimes when people tends to get hyped up over a conversation or something , you would go smacking your friend cos you cant 'handle' it . but OMG please lah , you dont need to hit my head , or push my head or whatever . seriously no manners . HELLO ! ; it's people's head , you like it when someone hit your friggin' head ? if you're just hitting my shoulders or smacking my back about something funny or whatever , well i do understand cos i do that too & i dont go around hitting my friend's head bcos of this . but if you do , you just have no manners =.= ZZZZZZ but waittt , not that i talk so much , but it's true whattttttttttttttttttt

3 - i dont know why people say i act to be something when im actually not . grrr so hard to explain . you know when you're on your normal self & in fact you weren't doing anything , a person say you're acting this & that . aiya so hard to say lah . but i went like - ZZZZZZZ excuse me , im not acting like what you thought FREAK ! =.= okay whatever

okay there goes all my ramblings when im in this kind of mood . OKAYYYYYY SHUDDUP ARH SIAL . anyway , the thunder freaking shocked me to death =.= lol that was random . prolly having performance(s) next week & yeah , this is also random 0.0

2009-10-12T14:49:00.004+08:00

MATHS PAPER 2 IS SO GODDAMN FVCKING
DIFFICULT , KNNBCCB

grr , my leg so fat :/
ouh btw , my new precious fella :D I GOT MY NIKE HIGH DUNK I GOT MY HIGH DUNK ! if to you it's not nice , then just shuddup okeh . i like it , i like it , i like the cheetah prints at the side eventhough the dunk is actually for men =.= IDC the women's dunk are not that nice to me , ZZZ . i wanna show off i wanna show off eventhough i know you guys can buy one =.= ZZZ okay BYE ! shuddup i better start revising for geog & sci & MATHS PAPER 1 !

ouh , 1 more left out pic on friday :D

2009-10-10T01:13:00.002+08:00

kenal ni laki sape ? whoa hawt arh dier ! XD

didi cazli/sazli ( or whatever) - CUTE !

quick !

2009-10-05T22:50:00.004+08:00

*edited

just a quick update . i dont think i can do it for EOY , ZZZZ . Math & Science , i think the result would be the worst of the worst(s) ouh btw , pichasssssss :D:D:D & i really really want an Adidas / Nike long top / dress badly ! see at the side , "truly wants it" column ! I WANT ! :( & i wanna get a pair of GOLD shoelace for my new nike kick :/

:X

2009-10-03T14:16:00.005+08:00

& again , i read all my post at my previous blog . okay second time im saying this , i think i change quite alot . in terms of my character & the way i speak . i kinda miss my old self . i think im much more talkative last time , more cheerful ? i sorta realise im a moody person , really moody cos i read my previous post & found out that there are quite a lot of post which i said im moody . ouhmygod , where's yidah ? ZZZZZ .

ouhya , i forgot to say something about yesterday's prank . GGGGGRRRR FARHANA ! this is the freaking second time which i got prank about [insert name] i believed her & i feel like killing her when she said she was just joking . EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE geram aku ! pfft !

yet today , supposed to meet emy at 11.30 at choa chu kang station . i reached there around 11.33 or whatever around 11.30 uh . i waited & waited & i get so fed-up . i told myself that if he still havent reach by 12 , i would just go home ! & yeah he still havent turn up =.= ZZZ go home arh sial , who wanna wait . it's not the first time okayyyyy , there's even one time which i waited for him for like 1 hour ? bastard . i know sometimes im late , but at least i did inform you that im gonna be late . i called you so many times just now , you didn't pick up &
YOU EXPECT ME TO WAIT FOR YOU LIKE ONE BIG FCUK DOWN THERE ?
cant even tell me earlier that you're gonna be late . at 12.15 , i alrdy reached woodland then he msg me saying that he's gonna be late & whatever . too late luh , you even ask me to go to Lavender first & still need to wait for you there cos you havent get out of your house ! wait for him is like waiting for winter . pfft GERAM AKU , pale buto

zip my mouth please , i should start revising now .
*extras (edited) - im moving to bedok with aunt+granny in a few weeks time ! tsk bedok ? zzzz i got no friends living there , hope i can make friendssssssxxxzzzz

rush

2009-10-03T01:48:00.004+08:00

eeek , eyebag(S) ! just a quick update , im bored now . i screw up for malay paper 2 . i hope i will pass my english ! durh i could have done better for malay & english paper 1 . i wrote about myself for composition =.= in the end , i think what i wrote in the paper has some sort nothing to do with me . i wrote craps . but im really hoping i would push myself to revise Science + Maths + Geog + everything else within this week . yet , im having a performance next friday , WTHHHHH ! thursday is the rehearsal , damn .

zzz going to kiki's open house tomoro ! i cant wait to see her "helmet" hair XD but other than that , im planning to go home straight after that or go anywhere else cos i dont wanna follow emy go raya with his fam =.= i feel complete [insert word] & dont wish to experience it again . gggaaahhh EXAMS ! i seriously needs to revise Science & maths like ALOT ?! okay maybe by this it will help me ( see below )

make friends with your glands ! that's the way !

"confession"

2009-09-29T19:38:00.003+08:00

poured out everything that is on my mind to JR . but i feel that there is more to it , too much till i didn't know which to say & where to start . what i really & truly need was kinda hard , JR says its so impossible . maybe it's possible but low chances ? if i were to get that kind of person which i wanted , it would be my best gift ever . zzz ive been blogging daily nowadays eventhough exams is around the corner . in fact , it's this thursday =.= guess i must not touch the laptop till end of this week . i need to memorise the format for letter writing for both English & Malay :D but before that , let me just make some "speech" =.= . . .

to lyn okay . err so yeah . didnt realise that i treat you coldly . im saying it to you here cos if i were to text you , i think it's too long . if talk on phone , im afraid i might say out the wrong things & sound harsh . furthermore , you said you were drunk =.= but whatever , like i said it's just about me , my moodswings & things which i couldnt control myself . maybe you still havent know me really well yet , i always get this kind of moodswings , always . cos you keep on msging me things which i think i dont need to reply cos it's too random & you know when you're having bad mood then some people just annoyed you keep on msging you random things , you might feel really annoyed right ? you said you would give me some time alone but then you still msg me =.= && i think your "cousin" who have been msging me all this while is not your "cousin" yeah that cousin thingy also makes me annoyed cos i keep thinking that it was just you who try to talk to me cos i didnt reply to your msgs , but i dont know if it's really your cousin . uhh i did say that i am having moodswings & bad mood at my blog & i need some time alone . maybe you are just over-friendly till i get annoyed ? but dont think wrongly kay , i dont hate you or whatever , i just need some time for myself . i dont wanna sound really harsh on you but im really really really trying my best to be polite here . cos i think if i were to just ignore you , you might think im treating you coldly . if i just say im irritated by you , im afraid im so harsh on you . but i think i just need to say it out(which i did =.=) at here & at the same time say that i dont mean to be harsh on you but i need to be honest cos i dont want you to think that im treating you coldly . so yeah , just give me some time & honestly i think we cant communicate . what's the point of just communicating via sms & msn ? =.= kkkkkk im sorry . REALLY SORRY . maybe you dont really understand me & dont know what kind of person i am =.= so yeah , dont think im hating you okay , i just need to let go some of my feelings .

blogger is like my best friend , i pour everything out here & feel satisfied , DURH =.= im putting my tagboard back . i hope there's somebody who would tag me . i only get tag-ed like once every 2 weeks ? pathetic tagboard . i know lah , this blog is like only between me myself & my own blog , nobody else is here ; hahahaha lame .

overslept

2009-09-28T18:11:00.005+08:00

fluffy teddy bear from N.ICEsyah hehe

hmm , my hp camera flash is not that good =.= i woke up late today ! wasted few $$$ today cos i cabbed to school . no , not to school , cabbed to bukit panjang . damn taxi driver . asked him to go via woodlands road nearer to senja there , then he went by the expressway . pfft , reached bangkit area he said he dont know where Zhenghua is . it was early in the morning & im so lazy to talk to him telling him the directions , asked him to drop me at pending , lol =.= & i saw somebody haha ! I SAW SOMEBODY ! ! !

i scored 17/60 for maths mock test , F9 lah F9 lah =.= english paper is this thursday followed by motehr tongue . i dont think im ready for exam . no not i think , I AM NOT READY FOR EXAM . i still have the time to blogged about today & surf the internet . tsk , pass in english & overall & can be promoted to sec 3Express , im already happy with it . 3E5 also can lah =.=

zzzzz im spending alot lately . . . whathell i think im starting to get miser like my step-dad . okay , few things which i REALLY WANT FIRST !
FaceShop thingy(s) & KICK , i dont know . Reebok or Nike ? i'll see then . going to FaceShop tomoro & just get what i want instead of just thinking & thinking about it . GGAAHH i wanna go to Far East to get that Reebok/Nike kick bastard !

takecare sluts
goodbye morons

07/11

2009-09-27T20:07:00.007+08:00

was updating my ~~blog~~ *tagged acct , then i came across this person's profile . it took me to last year's happenings , & i was like WTF . tau tak update tagged tadi , mcm sial =.=

ahboi ingat the first time we know each other through FS ?
ahboi ingat you keep on asking for my number many times for 2 months ?
ahboi ingat the first time we meet up with each other at causeway ?
ahboi ingat tak we talked with each other at woodland park ?
ahboi ingat tak we already hold hands on the first day we met ?
ahboi ingat tak i told you i didnt want to accept you now cos i dont like the date ?
lame arh yidah tak suke date
ahboi ingat tak we always to go to cck park ?
ahboi ingat tak we both like BABYCAKES ?

i only get to know you for 2 months & be with you for almost 1 month . my first boy , yidah tak expect yang ahboi jadi yidah nye ehem* . you gave me all i need but i dont give you what you need . you commit more than me . yidah tak sangke sampai sekarang yidah maseh boleh ingatkan ahboi . nak dekat 1 year dah . ahboi ingat yidah pick the date 07/11 ? lame lah aku . harap dapat terserempak ngan ahboi somewhere tapi hari tu mcm tak akan datang je . nampak pun kawan2 ahboi , ahboi tk de =.= yidah tau kite org jadi mcm gitu pasal yidah . kite org silent break psl yidah mengharapkan ahboi je untuk text/call yidah dulu . ahboi tau sumer pasal perempuan sampai yidah tak boleh sembunyi apape2 ( phm-phm arh ) . yidah tak de gambar untuk buat kenangan (ceyh mcm paham sial!) . gambar pun sumer dari ayul . nk mintak ayul gambar malu plak . haha gambar babycakes je yang boleh yidah anggap as a memory (haha kekek uh) . walaupun tk sampai 1 bulan kite org together , ahboi btol treat me well & yidah tak akan lupekan ahboi .

tau tak yidah happy giler babi taw that time ahboi chat ngan yidah pat msn abeh mintak number baru yidah cos yidah tukar number . whooooaaaa yidah ingat mcm patch balek gitu . tapi tak plak . . bace horoscope , ade link plak tu abeh horoscope ni mcm sial ckp "dont expect what you expect" - mcm tau gitu , mcm sial kan ?! abeh ade lagi satu incident mcm sial . satu kawan yidah prank call yidah . suare dier same sngt2 dngn ahboi . yidah ingatkan tu btol2 ahboi , yidah HAPPY TO THE MAX MCM BDK GILER . dapat tau kawan yidah prank call yidah , yidah nangis taw ! LOL . yidah maseh ingat number ahboi sampai skrg okay eventhough kite org tk contact each other for a long time . kite org nye first msg sumer pat dalam hp lame yidah , rindu taw . kalau sayang tu yidah blum lagi percaye dlm cinta2 sayang2 ni sumer lah , tapi yidah tau yang yidah sukekan ahboi . yidah rase ahboi pun dah ade mataer baru skrg , happy always kay ! dah dah dah jgn nk mepek lagi .

lol yidah feeling urh , dah start cerite psal hidup aku nie =.=
aku maseh sukekan ahboi urh . dah lah stop lah yidah .
sebok ngan cinta monyet plak . lagipun ahboi tak akan bace nie larh yidah ! ~~buang mase je !~~
my sani aka my sunny boy XP

boring party

2009-09-27T19:27:00.004+08:00

went for the NDP party/outing or whatever it's called . it's SERIOUS SHITZ BORING . the food is also not that nice durh =.= & again , reached home early ! - 5.30pm WELL DONE me ! but before going home got into a tiff with one GB , ni one of a kind , rare in a way ; very dissapointing for me .

time flies so fast . Seven days of raya has already passed . i went out Raya-ing for only 1 day , that is on the first day of raya . i give it a miss on Friday & today cos i have dance on friday & mum didnt informed me earlier about today's plan . so yeah , today is sucha boring day . DAMN BORING .

if you weren't my friend's boyfriend or whatever , i think i could've throw my anger at you . furthermore it's at Mac , think i better just save my face than throw my anger at people like you . nasib aku boleh sabar , kalau aku ni mcm minah , tak tau ape jadi . didnt know that such people exist . shucks , i should do my Eng compre now & shut my mouth up talking about him .

think im a very patient person =.=

dont read

2009-09-26T23:27:00.006+08:00

woke up late at 2.30pm . emy texted me saying that i need to go to CC to give them the raya tickets . took a long time to get ready . bath 1 hour , find the tickets like hell cos i misplaced it . reached there , wait for emy like hell . by the time he came it's 6pm . then went for the YEC meeting . haha i sound so [insert word] when i was introducing myself . but the whole thing was fun , hilariousxzsxz . the people there are okay , friendly & funny lol . played Resident Evil during our bonding session , kept on screaming cos it's scary in a way . haha that's all about it today . reached home early today , 10.15pm YAY me !

you wont like it if someone copies you right ? =.= no ripping eh . i seem to let my mood take control of me . like im in a bad mood , instead of trying to clam myself or do anything , i just say out what's on my mind . i say out MORE than what's in my mind . didn't think before i say it out . didn't think twice before i did any actions . okay okay im starting to get dramatic + "feeling" right now =.=

btw , watched few videos on Maplestory . i miss MAPLESTORY DAMN LOTS OKAY . i still remember the song which used to play in the game itself . tried to download it but can't . even when im downloading it , it will be fully downloaded in 7hours++ , who wanna wait man =.= i miss my cleric & assasin :( ouh i want new Nike Dunk please ! omg i keep on saying i want this & that but i end up buying other things =.=

temperamental

2009-09-26T01:07:00.003+08:00

okay , alot happened late . yeah kinda alot . lemme list down what happened today :D

1 - i think i was blur this morning before going to school . i accuse my brother for taking my keys while actually i have kept my own keys in my pocket . i only realised it when i was walking down the staircase & i borrowed my mum's key , ahh sorry abang .

2 - went school , i was so MOODY & kinda having a bad mood . i see people blocking my way + walking slowly , i got mad at them =.= hah but hyped up after P.E cos soccer totally make my day . confirm plus chop i will laugh my ass out at each soccer game XD

3 - rush home first to pass mum her keys then went to ZCC . otw there , took 963 to bukit panjang . as i was waiting at the queue , i realise there is an old woman across the road squatting down . you'know we can see those grass at woodlands interchange opposite us ? yeah that grass patch , so after a few minutes then i realise the old woman is shitting at there . WTF , she really did take off her pants but not fully . could see some black bushes =.= i could see her SH!T but thank godness cant smell it cos i was quite far away . i dont know why i cant stop looking at her . not because i wanna see her parts or think she is crazy . but i was like " omg , why is she doing this ? she has no home ???? " you'know that kinda stuffs . okay blah blah blah .

4 - reached pending , took LRT . another incident happened . haha i seating down , opposite me was a little girl & beside her was her grandmother (i think) . her grandmother bring a small-market-trolley & put the little girl's school bag inside it . as the train drive to the side & it turned , the trolley went rolling in front to the person beside me XD HAHA & the grandmother didn't realise it . she only realise it when the person beside me caught the trolley & the little girl was giggling XD HAHAHA WTH okay okay to me funny ar , if you were me , you would know what i mean lah .

5 - had dance prac for raya . teached the juniors a few simple steps . one of them cant catch up . like seriously dumb or what ? simple step cant get it quickly . i was so frustated with her till i get out of the studio & cried . LOL :P

okay yeah whatever . just summarising what happened today .

i want nike dunk heel

2009-09-22T23:52:00.003+08:00

serious shitz , COMPLETE COOLNESS

+ SO FREAKING CHIO !

but i think it's very very very hard to find Nike dunk heel in SG . chances of seeing this selling in stores is so low . bet the cost of this dunk heel is SO EX too ! but if i were to see one , i die die wanna get it ! just got myself gladiator heels . now i want those kind of KILLER heels .

anyways , spent kinda alot today . i mean alot for just one day . i thought of saving my money today at least $25 but instead i spend $30 . damn october's SEVENTEEN magazine cost $7.95 . alah i spend on things which i dont need lah . summore just now i extend my fringe , the uncle says the hair is permanent & can grow but then it is actually clip-on . okay bye this is not a proper post . im shooting everything out without thinking .

dont think i will update for tomoro & few more days . need to complete the raya dance tomoro & thurday having jai ho ! LOL so happy having jai ho XD

EAST ?

2009-09-22T00:25:00.004+08:00

hmm i got a bad news for myself . mum is going to move in with grandma & aunt soon . new house , wonder how big/small for us . 2 more months to enjoy in the north/west side now . november gonna move to east . ohmygosh i dont have any friend living in the east 0.0 wtfook its gonna be dead boring . hope mum moves back to somewhere nearer to my school once she marries with her goddamn boyf .

raya was okay-okay . not that happening but still . . . yeah still fun but not fun ? havent count the total collection yet but bro get 100 plus so i must be getting around the same heh ? 100 plus so little seyh :( 2 hours of school tomoro (pathetic) & 1 hour of history remedial after that , pity me need to go for that remedial . hope it's cancelled :/ hoping & should be tomoro im gonna extend it .

LYN DONT GET MISUNDERSTOOD ! IT ISNT MEANT FOR YOU .
buat aku [insert word] je .

no title

2009-09-19T20:16:00.005+08:00

changed background colour to a more bright one cos i wanna represent happiness . okay lame ; but that really was my intention .

aunt's place now , gonna celebrate first day of Raya here with the other aunties & uncles who have big mouth . hmm bro gonna be here today , why not tonight bastard ? ! finally i can eat anywhen i want :D im so bored , blogging now cos i wanna kill time . i wanna buy something to munch on but the nearest minimart/shops is so far far way , like 2 bus stops from here , ggaahh .

i dont know okay , like i said im having moodswing/bad mood now & i dont seem to care about anything which is none of my business . keep asking me whether you should go army / overseas study or not ? yea at first i said no but now i think it's your own choice to decide , i dont wanna interfere . it's your life .

okay im starting to get used to notebook now . i wanna get myself zipper/gladiator heels & a must - a KICK ! i dont care what brand , as long as it attracts me . so upset that the nike kick ordered has no more size for me plus the another black+white nike kick which i wanna buy ALSO HAS NO SIZE FOR ME ! wth my feet too small meh .

zzzz think i need my bro to make me alive tomoro , NO MOOD FOR RAYA LARH SIAL . dont know why everybody else is so excited for raya while im not looking forward to it . im only looking forward to raya cos can eat !

& to you , LOL didnt know that i would wake up & see you which is really you & not anyone else . yea i wake up from this DREAMS . dont ever lie to me again . it DONT WORK , in fact im getting irritated by your lies . i feel so guilty for doing this but i said this cos i dont wanna hide it . HONESTLY , you are not [insert word] like what i see you last time . please dont ever lie about that again , it is definitely not the way to attract my attention . ouh ya second time im saying this , you are so RANDOM/LAME

fcuk-ed up

2009-09-17T19:44:00.003+08:00

you are lie-ing/lying . dont try to trick me into this .

tsk , fcuk lar . think im having moodswings now . i started low in the morning , then i was kinda hyper & talk alot in late morning(?) then , felt angry & mad in the afternoon . after that , i enjoyed the rest of the day dancing . i LOVE " jai ho " dance . lol ms chun rocks to the max okay !

i was particularly regret & angry about someone when i was talking with anthea about Q . so yeah that someone is Q =.= we talked about last year's dance competition . i started to think he is pathetic & totally dont mirror himself (cos he kept talking sh!ts about someone & i dont agree with him) i mean yeah , i do talk so much but i dont think im that worse like Q . quit talking about him , make me regret of not pulling out from the competition .

then , the next thing is , my brother sms-ed me asked me why is the wax filled wih hair cos i share wax with my brother . at first i thought maybe it's just 1 or 2 hair & thinks my brother is kinda sensitive about wax . then when i reached home , checked the wax ; omg it's not 1 or 2 hair or anything which i thought . it's like sucha short hair like 0.5cm-1cm short . it's like so goddamn many lar + disgusting much . i was so disgusted by it .

then i remembered that last friday zali cut his hair & he borrowed my wax so i think that explains everything . & also i didnt check before taking it back & didnt use it the whole week . only today i found out . freak la goddamn mother fcuking idiot , got scolded my brother because of this . yet , i tried to clean those hairs but then it cant get out & even stick to the wax more . ARGH KNNNBCCB

i kinda got no mood to go dance at ZCC tomoro . but we still have to complete the dance for raya . guess i'll just have to drag my way there . even with this bloody mood of mine .

stalker is the comment/compliment about you which i get from my friend . i agree ? hah idk ? but one thing is you are kinda lame in a way . my people says they are just forced to laugh . soz dude , im in a bad mood now . im starting to make mountains out of molehills that's why i just shoot it out to ease myself .

sayyidi

2009-09-16T20:26:00.003+08:00

s'dah = saiyidah = tSai Yi Dah = yidah

abang ingat tak bile kite org kecik2 , kite selalu pimpin tangan bile klua ?
abang ingat tak time tu nak naek bus , abg ingatkn budak perempuan cine sebelah
abang tu s'dah abeh abang terpimpin tangan dier ?
abang ingat tak kite selalu main PP ? heh
abang ingat tak kite org selalu main "swing" pat double decker bed pat CCK ?
abang ingat tak bile s'dah K1 , s'dah nak balek rumah Cik ina abeh
abang sembunyi2 nangis tngk pat s'dah ?
abang ingat tak bile s'dah habes skola bile K1 , s'dah nak balek abeh
abang nangis bile s'dah dah naek bus nak balek rumah Cik ina ?
abang ingat tak dulu kite org suke tngk cerite Pokemon ?
abang ingat tak dulu kite org addicted to Maplestory abeh kite org
main game tu sampai pagi same2 ?
abang ingat last year s'dah nk ton dngn kawan skinhead abeh abang tk kasi abeh
abang marah s'dah mcm org giler ?
abang ingat tak last year bile s'dah sec 1 , abang dapat tau s'dah ton bile
abang tngh ade camp abeh abang marah s'dah pukul s'dah ?
abang ingat tak bile abang tngh marah tu , abang ade cakap -
"aku sayang kau bodoh , asal kau buat gini" ?
hmmm
asal tak balek ? surat NS tngh tunggukan abang nie .
abang jgn pergi NS dulu eh ? defer okay .
bile tngh mase mcm gini , s'dah tk nk abang pergi gitu je .
but what i know is that i WILL meet you on sunday .
i should've bought a pink baju kurung to match with you .

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i dont know why im so moody these days . i already plan to meet emy to search
for my heels . yea we did meet just now but less than 1 hour , my mood started
to change . even emy asked me why ive got no mood ? i GOT NO FREAKING mood to search for my heel & said to him i wanna go home . so sorry , i really got no mood , so sudden . was so sudden my mood changes . i was damn quiet . sorry emy to spoil our plan & your day .

but at least today , i did had a great time during home econ practical exam . Zhuang Pei Yi is so seriously sh!t freaking funny lor . sit with her confirm i will laugh my ass out . summore just now while i was "frying" my egg , i got to know that i forgot to on the stove when i wanted to throw it away cos it stays the same ! LOL or what . then i put too much oil , the auntie in the kitchen says - " you are not frying the egg , you're frying the oil ! "

third post , dammit

2009-09-14T18:51:00.003+08:00

i cried when i watch this video . i CRIED MORE when i watch other related videos .
argh , right now im in bad terms with my mum & i just blogged about her calling her this & that . then , i came across this video which makes me feel SOOOOO GUILTY towards my mum . kimak , what a co incidence . shucks , but it's not the same situation okay . think i need to go for more CIVICS & MORAL classes & learn to apreciate what my mum has done for me . OHMYGOSH i wonder how i can came across this video

second post ?

2009-09-14T17:56:00.002+08:00

asal abang tak balik semalam ?
mane abang pergi ?
s'da tak nak tengok muke
ibu abang lagi tau tak !
s'da nak abang bbual ngan dier

im getting to hate her more & more .
im really dont know how to appreciate
what she has done for me .
i dont seem to realise that without
her , i wont be in this world .
i want my father

she sucks

2009-09-14T17:45:00.004+08:00

i couldnt sleep the whole night . i remembered i keep on looking at the time while i was listening to songs . i keep on changing tracks till i found the right one that could lead me to sleep . ggaaahh i started to doze off while i was listening to "stuck with each other" at 5 in the freaking morning . sadly , i overslept & didnt went to school =.=

mum find me still sleeping on the bed & she was like !%$%#^$!!@#! & she was like blah blah blah & i was like - look at the time then i went SHUT THE HELL UP ! ( in my heart :D ) she was busy chit chatting on the phone with her boyfriend & told him i was staring at the wall cos i didnt know what to say to my form teacher tomoro why i was absent today .

ouh my ; HEEEELLLLOOO ! teachers dont care if we give them MC / parent letter okay ! i know in the school's handbook its stated that we cannot give more than 3 parent letter a year or in a term . but hey , i think i gave more than 3 parent letter which i WROTE BY MYSELF & FORGE THE SIGNATURE so far .

bullsh!t , you think im so scared about this ? ! pppffffftt . you can just go suck your boyfriend's balls & FUCK with him , you dont need to open your goddamn big mouth cos it's freaking IRRITATING ! i know im wrong but you dont need to go over the limit , i can THINK , i can REFLECT by myself ! BOO !

moodswings ?

2009-09-13T20:03:00.003+08:00

i dont know what im feeling right now . im so restless . i dont even know what word to describe what im feeling right now . it's like you think too much but you feel so hopeless + panic ? that kind of thing . im starting to get really really moody now .

gaahh this has been going on since a few days ago . so temperamental , my mood just changes quickly . one moment i could be VERY HYPER & few seconds later , im so quiet thinking alot of things . today , i dont feel like talking to anyone . i just want to be alone ?

i just want my brother here . it's been awhile since we chat about our life . i dont want to be alone without my brother . i feel like ive been following my mother too much & i just don't feel like im FINE with my new step-father . he dont shower me with what i want like my previous step-father & my own father does .

im starting to think my mother & her BF is so pathetic , pathetically pathetic & it makes me REALLY pathetic . nice in a way , bad in a way . i just dont want to be alone without my brother .

next thing is that im left with Science edublog & english compo . ive got no mood to study . 3 more weeks , all im hoping for is a pass in english & overall . i got no goals for EOY . just dont let me freaking retain , im already glad . i dont care if i go 3E5 next year , cos im still taking the same O level paper b!tch .

i just dont want to talk to anybody else & wants to be alone for now . i want my brother home tonight , eventhough high chances he will be at his friend's place . i miss my father & brother . it's been more than 4 months since i last saw my father .

saya rindu sama abang saya .
saya mahu ayah saya kembali kepada saya .

shucks im getting so lame over here . i dislike my mother for certain reasons . & definitely , im not ready for school . hmm , i want to get that kitten toy which i saw at geylang that day . i think that could be one of my best companion .

cant sleep !

2009-09-11T07:15:00.002+08:00

it's already 7.15am &
i can't sleep since yesterday .

since i cant get to sleep , i tune in
to MisteriJam 12 till 2am . i tossed
& turn still cant get to sleep , change
bed + listen to songs . I STILL CANT
GET TO SLEEP ! till 4.30 , had my pre-dawn
meal then STILL CANT SLEEP ! so decide
to kill time on the laptop instead of
doing my composition . ggaaaahhhh i should
not sleep in the afternoon so that i can
sleep tonight :P

watched alot of Lady Gaga videos cos i dont
know why im suddenly addicted to Just Dance
again =.= even the MALE back-up dancers wear
heels , cool kepa . currently listening
to old old song back to '05 =.= durh .
im addicted to many songs right now . im bored
i dont know what to post & i know i wanna
post something :/

LOLLI-FCUK i want the helmet hair :(
trying some ways to make my hair grow
more faster & MORE thicker .

guess i'll bring along my homework to dance
later cos i know we will be slacking for
a certain period of time . i realise i've
been updating my blog EVERYDAY .
argh im gonna check my horoscope now :P

nike dunk = no more !

2009-09-10T23:13:00.000+08:00

number 1 - i just received an email from the seller
yesterday that the nike shoe size that i ordered
is out of stock . pantat pale buto . i don't think
other design attracts my attention . but i really
really really want it . or should i just save my
money ? hah 100bucks++ only . must make up my mind
before 26 sept before they close down the order :/

number 2 - my prepaid is low & i cant make calls / sms
for now . it's quite fast , just few days ago i top up
& now its only left with 3cents . i think i should
start buying prepaid from shops , you'know those type which
you need to activate or whatever craps cos in my whole life
i top up my prepaid by ATM machine =.= argh but i dont
know how to use the pp8 from shops one . apedahhh

number 3 - my homeworks is still not done yet . im still
left with Sci edublog thingy ( 1 question only :P ) ,
2 maths WS & english compo which im planning to do it later .
but i got no idea since just now afternoon what to write .
time / lesson learnt / teacher's thingy craps .

ggggaaahhh im blogging cos im too bored . wanna do HW but
i dont know how to do . life is so boring . i just want
$$$$$ but i fought with her yesterday then she don't want
to fulfill what i wanted . bastard .

i fought with her

2009-09-09T23:46:00.000+08:00

Syurga di tapak kaki ibu ? - omg , did i phrase that correctly ? & is it really true ?

too many things is running in my mind now . i was so pissed off that today's dance practice is cancelled cos i was so looking forward to it . then i decided to drop by my grandma house since im free .that's when a lot of things happen . get to meet my cute + irritating little cousin , one of them can finally walk (*claps yippeeee !) took a long nap from 12 to 5 & decided to sleep again from 6 to 7 :D durh

i had a chat with my uncle about my situation & said - " HANCUR " . yea , memang dah hancur pun . i just think we got no life . i find what my brother says about her is freaking true . what my bro says about her is " jual puki " .

i guess im being insolent for calling her a b!tch bastards & stuffs . i don't see her as what she is suppose to be like others . she thinks about herself , i don't give a damn about it anymore but i feel like saying this to her . it doesn't mean that i stay quiet , im fine with everything that you're doing . it's because that i give up on this & only expect one one thing from you - that standard thing =.= to make matters worse , i fought with her today , pffft .

hah uncle say just be patient . but i believe in standing on my own feet , tsk okay im being lame . i wont let her pull me down & i wanna pull her down . i think i should show her some [insert word] so that she knows that i dont agree with her & what she's doing . see-ing my brother's actions , i think i should follow what he's doing instead of keeping quiet like what im doing right now .

argh wet my face when i was talking with my uncle about her . in the end , being stubborn i went home at 10pm eventhough my uncle/aunt force me to stay over for a night . took bus with a bag that is filled with teddy bear which i get on my birthday & left it at my grandma's house until today , which i finally bring it back home .

not only that , i went home with these sore eyes & the thing which i dislike the most , i caught a flu after taking nap just now . i keep on sneezing in the bus & sneezing makes my face looks like a drug addict , seriously . it makes my sore eyes & eye rings more obvious . i look suckish today & also , IM FEELING SUCKISH BECAUSE OF THE GOD-DAMN FLU . wait , before that browse through my folders & decided to edit this :)

haha sec one pic :) tomoro is your last paper right ?

if im not wrong , zzz . hehe & again , all the best :P

hmpf , nobody is at home . no food for pre-dawn .

only left a dozen sachets of milo powder :D

hee think i need to go down to 7-11 .

SAYA RINDU AWAK JUGAK

i want $$$ please

2009-09-08T22:48:00.000+08:00

i look kinda [insert word] so so eeew , but i loike the tree :)

went to town with ENZ & ANTH ( me cabbages ) just now . did window shopping cos gonna go shopping with mum this week XD know what i wanna buy already . i almost spend my money just now , was trying hard to control myself from spending cos im afraid the money which i need to pay my Nike kick gonna vanish =.= im so wanting that UK printed tee . sellers at peninsula plaza is GOD-DAMN FCUKING SCARY . kinda funny & creepy in a way . that uncle went !@#$%@$@# when i dont wanna buy that Arctic Monkey band tee from his shop cos i find it too plain :/ he even called me monkey when i laughed ! damn him . i forgot what he says but i find it harsh on customers & yeah , funny in a way but im also kinda pissed off by him . feel like just smacking him .

do you know that i have a freaking crush on you ?

having Jai Ho dance tomoro , YIPPEEEEE ! still have quite alot more homeworks to do . maths is a total killer for me . i went " blank " about science blog stuff , i dont know what to do . so yeah , left many things not done yet ; compo , 2 maths ws , last question for sci & home econs & history ? i dont even know who is my groupmates for history 0.0 SA2 is coming nearer , prepare to die yidah . im just hoping for a pass in English & also pass in overall . i dont mind getting into 3E5 next year , we're still taking the same paper at the end of the day , right ? i think i have no goals in studying . i just do what i can . nah nah not the right way yidah

eva played a prank on me just now ! i was so heartbroken !

but nah im OKAY ! so OKAY !

yea he did called me after you alight the bus .

but i didnt go =.=

iftar

2009-09-07T23:17:00.000+08:00

went to furbee's crib just now to eat-together/iftar as it's his birthday ( i think , around there ) . his mother cook that sambal ayam so fcuking nice , i ate 4 drumsticks with that sambal you'know . nice lah okay whatever . met few other peeps at his house . kinda bored at the end , then rounding at Rivermale mall , also nothing much . plus i was kinda moody at that time , feel like going home & just stare at the wall . otw , she msg me ! heeeeeee happy XD

haha now i realise i've got many horny friends + cyber friends . i asked a question on my personal message if girls can masturbate . so when i just online , many people bomb me ; almost all of them says girls can masturbate . some even gave me clips / websites LOL ! you guys are freaking horny . there's even this guy who gave me 3 clips on girls masturbating . omg you're a guy & you know girl's stuff . omg , people nowadays , hais tsk tsk tsk ; ouh okay now i know girls can masturbate & how girls masturbate . ouhya before i forgot , i did say i wanna post some disgusting pictures . not really disgusting but kinda interesting ? haha take a look at them :)

SO GODDAMN SORRY TO POST THIS PICTURES . cos before i saw these pictures , i didnt know that anyone would pierce their private parts :P i was like OUH-MY-GOD-DAMN-FCUKING-GOD when i saw those pictures . cos i think there might be other people who thinks that no one in this world have pierced their private parts before , these pictures are just some proofs . btw , i dont know why that girl in the first picture pierce her nipple . you are not gonna go out showing your tits around right ? durh wtf man . okay bye .

gayland

2009-09-07T01:32:00.000+08:00

went ~~geylang~~ gayland just now . not that crowded cos i went there around 10++ & everyone is already on their way home . geeee told mum AGAIN that i dont want to buy any raya clothes & she went !@^%&%#!#$ must buy must buy at least one ! reached there , i told her i want this particular baju kurung / dress or something like that which cost $120 & she say too ex :P tsk wth . home sweet home eating dendeng at 12am++ i think ? reached aunt's place at bedok nearly 1am . right now , im using my younger brother's notebook which is so goddamn small & im having a hard time typing cos the "keyboard" is fcuking small + cramped . then , the screen is also irritatingly small , tsk .

i've got alot of pictures which i wanna upload & share but it's in my laptop :/ & i can 100% gurantee plus CHOP that someone would be FCUKING disgusted by it . it's seriously disgusting but i think it's a great one 0.0 heh wait till my next post , im quite sure that most of you may be prolly shock by it XD ouhkay great , im craving for ALOT of things now . but mum says after wednesday then i can get $kaching$

i want an Audrey Hepburn printed vintage tee
i want The Beatles printed loose tank top
i want U.K printed flag tee , err more to like those British R&R you'know . .
i want more vintage printed tees !
i want high-waist pants
i want high-waist shorts
i want this kind of wooden brown heel , hard to explain
i want a striking KILLER heels
i want Vans / Everlast new rasta sneaker-pumps
i want that " i LOVE topshop " tote
i want those vintage buckled bags

lastly , i want a colourful Nike dunk high & i've already pre-ordered it .
no turning back yidah , your savings will be gone just for that one pair of sneakers .

you don't go army , die die must not go !

if you go , then BYE-BYE fullstop .

but hey , joking only ler .

who am i to stop you from going army XP

ive been keeping it ,

but i think you already know .

you're so caring okay , so sweet .

sucha sweet-talker , haha .

having exam later in the

morning/afternoon right ?

all the best okay , you study

like almost 12 hours sey .

don't sleep too late , nanti

your eyes macam mashimaro

heh but if look like mashimaro pun ,

you still look cute lol XP

btw , i think you will be angry if i say this

but i also think its no big deal to you ,

so sorry to lie to you

that night , i told you i will be offline

& wanna go to sleep at 3am .

i did offline but i didnt off the laptop .

you did went to sleep at 3

but i was on the laptop till 6

in the morning & could only

get to sleep at 7am .

gaaaaaahhhhhh sorry you , for lie-ing :/

guilty larrr

masturbation

2009-09-05T02:05:00.000+08:00

haha i loike this one the most but my lips ; stop it eh .

soz , mind me for my boxers :/

my hair my hair my hair ; nice anoooooooot ? :P i should learn to style up my own hair . so as usual , friday went to ZCC dance studio . somewhat i kinda like it today . we did quite many stuffs , include malay dance haha finally get to choreo something . & also , took picsxzsxz :D ouhya , they started on a topic on sex & stuffs & i wonder if girls really can masturbate . i think no , but they said yes 0.0 gonna research , lol . wonder why these days im talking about masturbation . both in school & outside . aiyyooo otak kuning

CA2 results ; err i pass English my 1 mark , haha i got 51 for Eng . i failed 3 subjects - Home Econs , History & Geography . my humanities totally suck big time but i love geography okay ! & finally , i passed my MATHS ! got 59 , C5 ! lol okay i know C5 is so low but it's an improvement for me . whatever , i'll post down my marks some other time . holidays is only 1 week & i got alot of homeworks + project . eeee fcuk . put studies aside !

i think i dont wanna buy that nike high dunk . i kinda agree with JR . i will look weird in big shoes like that . im already so short & have short legs then i still wanna wear a big high dunk shoe . wtf yidah , think i shop with that money more better . so looking forward to tuesday :D EVA ! you must follow okay ! MUST ! haha . im always looking forward to wednesday , okay blah blah blah .

each time i wanna move forward ,
something in me will pull me back .
strong conscience huh ?
but im setting my eyes on it .

cut , slice , dice , mince

2009-09-03T20:52:00.000+08:00

ouh wow ( ! ) lol interesting much ? bet it taste good huh ? wtf

PPPPPPPPPPPFFFFFFFFFFFFFFTTTTTTTT , i really hate my uncle who ask me so many question about my [ insert word ] till i couldn't take it & broke down . im so embarassed cos he heard me crying . eee fcuk im gonna kill him :/ i tot of going over to my grandma's place yesterday but i didn't wake up from my long nap & decided just to go there next week . i really miss them . been few months i guess since i last saw them .im sure gonna vomit out everything to my aunt :/ i guess all of you wouldn't want to know any of that =.= so skip !

Sci test -> I AM SO SURE & CONFIDENT MUCH THAT I WILL FAIL IT :) i totally give up on science till i wrote craps in the blank . i even left a message - " *blank , i forget everything " & " i dont know " wow that's great man ! ouh i still have home econ test tomoro cos i was absent last week , whoa so troublesome . Exam in few weeks = DIE ! okay as long as i dont fail my english , i will feel safe :D i dont care which class i go to next year , be it E5 , as long as i dont retain . at least drop to N.A , pls goddammit dont let me retain :(

*sigh , i've been searching for the helmet / bowl hairstyle which i think it looks nice & cant seem to find it over the internet . i know where to get the pictures but it belongs to someone else from FB / blog . well , i can't be taking their pictures anyhow right ? durh wtf . i wanna get a new hairstyle , or i cut my hair shorter . my hair looks like somewhat "bob" now & it kinda looks like concave hairstyle . i wanna extend my fringe . i want long fringe , my fringe is too short :/ ok bye people . signing off now . imy

final destination

2009-08-31T23:16:00.000+08:00

OMG im so happy today !
haha , i get to sneak in into the cinema to watch Final Destination 4 . okay lol , i know there's nothing exciting about that =.= yeah it's nice . but i have to say that Final Destination 3 is way way more better than FD 4 . there's no obscence(s) in FD 4 , not syiok :/ FD 3 have interesting scence(s) **winks XD haha eh btw , thanks to her for treating . i only make a ' tak tau malu face ' =.=' hehes , ANTHEA ! be jealous that i get to watch Final Destination 4 ! harhar jokingsxzsxz .

btw , i read my old posts in my old blog . i find myself kinda cheeky & [ insert word ] . durh i dunno how to describe myself last time . but i think i did change , abit ? no wonder there's unwanted spammers on my blog last time , the way i talk is so - [ insert word ] . but hey , i will still stand up for my own rights okay !

lol , so sweet + cute right ? haha anyway people , i recommend

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second post

2009-08-30T03:20:00.000+08:00

second post for the ~~day~~ night . im too bored , i dont wanna get to sleep first . i think i will sleep after i eat my breakfast which is at around 5.30 ? durh anyways , was soooooo bored till i camwhore abit cos i think i lack of NEW pics of only me ~ive got few things to talk about . Movies & Baybeats .

i just got to know that Final Destination 4 is M18 . most of my older friend said it's just PG , not R , M or whatever . alah WTF , then i must watch it over at the internet , which is so hard to get a good quality one . then , Jennifer's Body movie is R21 , ALAMAAAAAK , boring ar gini . why all the syiok-syiok best-best movie i cant watch uh ? damn . grow up first .

baybeats . i missed saturday's baybeats . sunday is the last day for this year . i didnt went last year's & i think i will missed out on sunday's baybeats . uh well , there's next year :P im sure gonna missed out those fun .

btw , my hand looks kinda big in the pic , LOL LMAO XD

someone make me so happy XD hahahahahahahaha i think she fell asleep alrdy after i called her notty . hehe dream about me & i'll dream about you , lol .

a day out with mum :D

2009-08-29T23:07:00.000+08:00

heh , she edit XD sweet kannnnnnnnnnnnnn

today was kinda different to me . usually i wont want to go out with my mum . but today , went out with her & my aunts . met mum first & booked table at sakura . then off to meet my aunts at Tangs . bought alot of clothes for my younger brother & little cousins . by the time they finish shopping , its gonna be time for breaking fast . i only manage to grab a colourful Nike bag cos we were in the Kids / toddlers section all day :/ i think my younger bro & my lil cousins is so noisy & fcuking irritating just now . i feel like taking my heels & smack their head off & just shove it in their mouth . my aunt even got herself this kind of string which people use it on dogs but this one is specially only for kids :D heh good one ! ouh ya september is gonna be here soon , few more days XD shopping time is coming .

but i bet mum wont let me buy that Nike high dunk . i want a boat shoe ! i want those vintage brown bags & suchs . seen like a rasta soon , lol :P too bad i go home alone today . mum went to Bedok & i drag my way home with heels on . finally after months of leaving my heels untouched , i wore it today . only today i realise my heels is too big . not that big but kinda loose . i should get a smaller size when it comes to heels :/ okay whatever . Sakura is not nice =.= the thai fried rice which i ate is not yummy . i think coffeeshop's fried rice taste more better . well , sakura is a cafe anyway , what's the diff ? haha XD

im craving a lot of thingssssssssssssssssss :D but i got no mood for raya . told mum i dont want any raya clothes or whatever but she says i must at least get one , at least ! seriously , i don't feel it coming . raya is around my exam period anyways . i should be studying instead of going out =.= but go out shopping i want :D heeeeeheeee . wtf im lacking of pictures ~~~~

you jangan sad sedih taw .
when you're down , it pulls me down :(

hope you're okay now .

remember ; you got me ! XD

LOL

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2009-08-27T20:25:00.000+08:00

it seems to be getting more complicated .
i dont want both him & her to drag this
matter , i dont wanna continue this
i thought things were getting better last
few months . then she decided to take
this action which then lead me , my brother
& herself into this situation .
i seriously feel she's like a goddamn b!tch .

been nearly 3 years & this matter is
still dragging & finding the way out .
i dont want to lose him .
i even told myself that when i already grew up ,
i wanna take care of him :X hehe talk so much eh yidah .
i feel & thinks she's the cause of this matter .
i dont know if i really care towards this matter .
even if i did , i dont think i can do much .
it's just up to both of them .
she wanna break us apart while he dont seem
to care cos he's too ego-ist & dont want to
let out his feelings .
i find him stubborn , stubborn like me .

now she has a new person .
i dont seem to be quite used to what this
person's lifestyle is .
bet my freedom will be taken away .
our situation is complicated & we are
just heading to nowhere . we are just
blindly moving on with nothing in
our minds . bet you cant really
understand what im trying to say .
let's just hope it turns well & that im able
to cope with it . & i definitely treasure
each & one of them , so much .
im so sorry to call her a b!tch in this
holy month but i cant seem to have any better
word to describe her .

if only you were in my shoes ,
you would know how embarassed i am
for not being responsible , not even a bit .
my life is more complicated than you can
ever imagine till my friend said my situation
is goddamn fcuking complicated & can
turn into a drama , haha :P
maybe this is just an obstacle which i have to go through ?
been 3 years , lol when is it gonna end ?

random

2009-08-26T17:47:00.000+08:00

think i should get this hairstyle . but not layer or whatever . you'know , i like those kind of thick short hair which REALLY FCUKING look like a helmet / bowl . kinda funny , i loike it . i find it cool :D hoho . wanna know what ? i dunno what i want for myself . i tot i said i want long curly hair ? then i cut it super short . now my hair is short , i said i want a shoulder lenght hair . then today , i said i want this hair . WTF lah yidah . talk cock talk sh!t .

i skip school today . nah i dont really skip school but overslept . i sleep at around 2am . before sleep , i clearly remembered that i have on my alarm clock ; 4.30am , cos i need to "sahur" maahh , prepare eating before starting to fast . then , found myself awake at 6.22am . wasn't really panic . in fact , i lie down on my bed again & think - go to school or not ? lol then i decide to just sleeep :D

woke up at 1pm i think . she text me :D haha that hairstyle you did is cute lah , very vintageeeee :D played pet society & i feel so goddamn hungry cos i didnt eat for sahur . but i just continue to fast :P gonna buy meal later . ok whatever whatever whatever . i hope i can buy this black & white Nike high dunk by next week or next 2 week . i'll buy a colourful baby phat kick sometime later , heh . but , i dont think i will but that nike kick . confirm you i will spend my money on other things .

lalalalalalala im always talking sh!t on my blog . i got no other things to say , bleah ! i guess nothing much happen lately :/ missed 2 test . having home econ test today but i skipped school . wonder how my result would be this year . as long as i pass my english , im okay . i failed my english for mid-year :(

i'll point it out

2009-08-25T20:11:00.000+08:00

i seriously miss tieing up my hair like this . eerr not tie
lah but somewhat tie :/ hair , pls grow to my shoulder
lenght faster . 4 months , can ? :(

-i've missed the history test cos i was absent last week . then ms quek cancelled today's test & i am very sure that i will fail my history , F9 . totally no hope .

-i feel like i wanna private my blog , link the ones whom i knew they read my blog ( i know who read my blog okayy ) , i wanna remove tagboard cos it's so dead , like completely dead .

- i don't like people who talk about others such things when they themselves are doing it . yeah i know i said gossipping is definitely okay for me . but , she's the doing the same thing towards us . always try to get in the middle . i bet you dont know what im trying to say .

-im tired of long school hours . im tired of squeezing so much things into my brain . im tired of writing long essays which makes me confuse at the end of it . im just tired of school , but i do wanna get good result . wah what sh!t am i talking .

-those pervertic people , dont ever chat with me in msn about sex & stuffs . dont talk COCK with me , i feel so disgusted by your desperation :/ if handsome neh mind arh , but this , eeeerrr (insert word) & mostly 20+ plus , fcuk yourself man .

-i want my long hair back , or should i say i shouldn't have cut this hairstyle . eee fcuk hair , pls grow faster . but now , i only want shoulder lenght hair , dont think i want that long long long curly hair which i used to want it so much . ok whatever , happy waiting to me .

-im soooooooo jealous of you . dont ever try to confuse me & make things complicated . ouh my god , im looking forward to this particular date .

-right now , i havent ate my dinner & so freaking hungry . lol i'll buy it later lah .

LMFAO

2009-08-24T19:32:00.000+08:00

had malay dance , which i miss it FCUKING MUCH . okay lah , Mr Osman never fail to make me LAUGH MY FCUKING ASS OUT during practice . he cut his hair & i think it's not fair cos his hair is so much more longer than mine :/ lol looking forward for malay & hip hop dance practice nowadays :D ouh ya , wanna know what ? for the first time this year , i finally passed my math level test . thank godness , the last level test for this year i get to pass . got 24/40 ok i know my marks kinda pathetic lah . but cant help it , so happy finally i pass XD Mr Tan is a good teacher , wahahahhaha !

Literature homework is somewhat killing me . 2 page full of words , mampos siol . not confident if i can pass english for EOY . i failed english in mid-year , & that is already considered FAIL for overall & hope i wont retain . at least , drop me to NA , i dont want to freaking retain . guess i should read more then . ouh ya im searching for a book about B / L .

FYI ; ive already planned that i want to work right after EOY exam has ended . think i wanna work & dont want to waste my time like i did during june holidays , which i just rot at home 24/7 on the bed & always on the internet . i dont even revise any of my subjects . i got nothing to do so i dont want the same thing to be happening for December hols . so i think i wanna start working in October . be it KFC / MB / or whatever , i just wanna work . on the other hand , i also wants to earn my own goddamn freaking money & enjoy what i've earned . i dont want to depend on my mother to buy me things . i wanna shower myself with more KICKS & ALL . name it all KICKS , BABY PHAT , NIKE , ADDIDAS & PONY & WHATSOEVER . i want it allllllllll :(

i dunno why this sudden feeling came over me . lemme tell you , im feeling so embarassed , angry at myself & feel like crying my heart out right now . i wished i can turn back time . i want a freaking time machine & bring me back to the past ! ! ! OMFG i hope he dont know about what ive said . i feel so goddamn embarassed & wanna take back my words . shitz , can you just erase all the things which you know im talking about you ? it makes me wanna cry & angry myself . fcuk man . goddammit . whatever , im lazy to d literature homework , i still need to update my malay file . im lazy to go to school , period . okay on the other hand , i should be fasting tomoro :D

cant fast for now

2009-08-23T20:28:00.000+08:00

ENZ , OMFG ; i miss my long hair

didn't enjoy the first day of fasting month , i cant fast cos im on my fcuking menses now . also , thursday i stained a bench in school cos my pad was overflowed with BLOOD . so sorry to say this , i won't tell which bench i stained . i don't want my schoolmates to freak out XD so , just don't sit at any bench okay ? HAHAHAHAHA . but i only stained a particular part of the bench , not the whole bench , only Norita & Eva knows it XD HEHEHEEHEH .

btw , happy 18th birthday muhammad zulhilmi bin ishak :) wonder how happy i am after i turn 18 . ZOUK & CLUBBING ; that's what i've been wanting to go & enjoy :( aiya feeling uh idth =.=
wait long long eh ! 4 years , study for O's first .

think i ate 6 sachets of Milo powder & i dirtied my bed . milo powder all over my bed & it dries up already . placed my phone on my bed & i dirtied my phone as well . i licked my phone just to clean the milo powder on it :/ aaahh whatever . ouhhh think i can fast tomoro , hope so .

i don't want to go to school tomoro .
i don't like ~~science subject~~ science teacher .
i dont wanna wake up early in the morning .
im not ready for exams .
im confident that i will fail .
i want my dance CCA to be held everyday .
i can't wait for SYF 2011 .
i want GOLD for SYF 2011 .
i want to represent my school for SYF 2011 .
if im in , i wanna push all the dancers
till all of us is in the same standard .
( OMFG , it's 1 year & 7 months to go )
i want Mcspicy & shaker fries
but i dont want it cos i dont
want to add fats to my body :/
durh , WHATEVER *shows "W" sign .

i miss my long hair but i know it should
be cut , sliced & diced :/
i miss playing maple story .
i miss my concave hair .
i miss malay contemporary .
i miss chingay .
i miss NDP .
i miss choa chu kang ( wth ? )
i miss concord primary .
i miss my primary school friends .
i miss my sec one moments .
i miss tieing up my hair .
i miss my "V" fringe .
i miss ah boi , NOT ! but actually yes
i miss YOU .
yes you lah :( :(

2009-08-23T03:43:00.000+08:00

alot happened lately . im kinda lazy to update now . i'll update tomoro :D call it dead for 16 hours . i'll reply to tags tomoro also =.=

dreams sucks

2009-08-19T22:09:00.000+08:00

after bathing , i dunno why but there's a sudden tiredness + sleepyness came over me . i just slept on my bad with my towel =.= & took 3 hours nap .

i woke up feeling kinda confused & anxious to know what would happen . i think hard for a long time in my bed & i started to get weakened :/ i dunno why i fcuking felt weakened or some sort like that . i believe that what i dream of are going to happen in the opposite in reality . how i wish " Holland Village " drama series doesnt exist cos from that drama , i started to believe that what we i dream of are going to happen in the opposite in reality & that was years ago . way back then i was only primary 1 when i believe in this "phrase" . ouh wow , it's been carrying with me for nearly 7 years . so cut it short , i dreamt about me myself having a great time with her with few others . it was super heaven , i was laughing & giggling all the way with her . it was nice , nothing bad , not even abit about something bad happen in that dream . but i don't only dream of this , there's another dream that's got to do with Eva & Norita . it was kinda confusing , scary & haunting ( to me ) .

i dunno i dream about my friends lately . first was Anthea , which was yesterday night . i dreamt about someone that has got to do with her & her name being heared in my dream . today , dreamt about Eva & Norita , let's just call this dream a maze . it was seriously confusing for me . i dreamt about "her" first , then i dreamt about the other two girls . but thank godness , when i woke up , it is still clear & i could remember it quite well , but not very well . it's either that i woke up right when the dream had finished or i woke up in the middle of my dream . but i remembered someone said to me that if we were to dream about something & we suddenly woke up , that dream may happen in reality . but omg , i dreamt about "her" first & about the two girls later . so issit that what i dream about the two girls is the one that may happen in reality ? omg , i think im getting confused over this post . cut it short , i hope that dream which i dream about "her" come true .

but OMFG , just now i talked about anthea being in my dreams & why not "her" ? & suddenly , i dreamt about "her" in my nap . i think im losing her , but i'll just go with the flow . she's sick now & i alrdy told her to rest well . i dunno if it actually ends here , right now . i swear her sweet-talks really moved me & im so not over her . i think im too "engrossed" about her . i miss you , your sweet-talks & especially , your good night text for me before i go to sleep . but i believe in standing on my feet , durh okay . im getting to sound pathetic now . i just have ALOT to vomit in this blog about "her"

school was fun . i screw up for dance music showcase just now . oral was just kinda average & lastly , anthea's holy confession can make me crazy . i keep on covering my ears when she sang it . LOL it's kinda scary when she sing it XD haha

another day of skipping school

2009-08-18T22:23:00.000+08:00

skipped school today , cos i overslept . at least i get to skip Science & malay lesson :P hah but i missed out on maths lesson , that's one sad thing for me :/ texted Ms Pek early at ard 7am & told her i was not feeling well to go to school & she said - " okay , but you must know what is happening in class today " hehehehehe :DDDDD

but went back to school for tomoro's music showcase . thank godness the song is only a minute plus . finished decorating the white glove , putting those glittery white glitter . gonna recap every steps later on ! i hope i wont be so cock-up tomoro , but i know i will forget at least 1 step XD ouhya , im so (insert feeling) that monday's malay dance prac is cancelled . im so looking forward to it y'know , then cancelled . alamakkkkkk .

why do i have this feeling that you don't wanna talk to me today . you said i was prolly having moodswing & having bad mood today . well , maybe i was having it . so sorry to mistreat you . i wasn't angry at you just now . maybe they way i talk is but i don't really mean it . anyways , i appreciate your actions & caring words . just to let you know , i get so carried away by your sweet-talks & i kinda afraid if all of it were to end . i hope i will get some usual-sweet-texts from you tonight . but i won't be surprised if i dont get it . blame it on my bad mood today . i hope i dont get you wrong about the convo just now . i miss your sweet words today . i can't stand it for a day . i wonder how i can cope with it if it were to continue for a long time & end in some day , which i hope it wont happen . prove to me that my instincts is not right .

proper update

2009-08-15T22:05:00.000+08:00

wanted to post a few days back . but whenever im already on blogger , im just blank -.- durh but i really wanna blog about someone today heh . let's start with school first :D as usual , i think Ms Tan don't like me , at all . i just have to bear it with her for a few more months . but hey , i hope she wont be my Sci teacher next year 0.0 okay i know i didn't do my homework but WTH ; that day , almost everyone in the class were talking among themselves & as usual , she decides to throw her anger at me :/ i don't think i talked very loud , i was whispering with my partner about something . there's hella more of my classmate who is talking more louder & happier & live-lier than i am & Ms Tan decides to told me off . but whatever , she said she won't care with anyone's attitude . wanna know what ? as much as you don't care , i also don't care . you deserved to be called rude by one sec 3 girl :P

i need more money :/ mum didn't give me shopping money , she only gave half :( having appreciation dinner summore . i hope the dinner is on hold until 26 Aug . if not , the dinner will be taking place on 19 Aug & i will be having my Malay oral on that freaking day & how the heck am i gonna rush there by 5.30 ? ! okay lah , malay oral is at 2.30 , im the 17th pupil . hhhmm go home summore , get ready , then rush to bukit panjang camp . aiya cannot make it lah . & im also blank now , i dunno what to wear for that dinner =.= budget of only 50-70 bucks , where can i find such clothes for dinner with only 50-70 bucks ? :( :( :( :( aiya wear casual sua . i want more tank tops , denim skirt , more sneakers & i want handphone strand thingy which you put on on your neck ( which i know it can be found anywhere , LOL ) anyway , finally dance has already started. i fcuking miss malay contemporary , so much . oh ya , & hip-hop too , haha .

so sweet of her to tell me those things . i was so touched by her text till i blushed & can't stop smiling to myself in the bus in front of many people . heart melts like hot cheese being poured all over my heart . she makes me go " gugugaga " , arhhhh , there she text me again . ok bye people :D

ouh one more thing , i realise many people is stealing my words :/ ouh idth is so pissed off but what to do with these kind of people ?

NDP pichas

2009-08-10T23:52:00.000+08:00

NDPeeps pics :D this is not all , there's tons of other pics from my friends . still waiting for them to upload , faster eh . & yeah my costume kinda sucks on me :/ & i look so suckish in some pics

my not-close relative but used to be closed when younger .

i think it's like already 4 years i last met him until NDP , LOL

if you happen to saw her anywhere , pinch her nipple XD hoho JK

embarassed much

2009-08-08T23:06:00.000+08:00

anthea turning hardcore heh ? *sticks out tongue . im so clumsy today . firstly , i got onto the wrong bus & i end up at somewhere which i don't know =.= but thank god i manage to find some way out XD

secondly , i was at Admiralty MRT . tapped my card then off to the escalator . i was taking out my earpiece from my bag , then i think i was also dreaming . then when i want to go up to escalator , i realised i got onto the wrong one ! instead of going to the escalator that is going up , i got onto the one that is going down ! i was like , no wonder this auntie keep on looking at me . i rush to the other escalator & just look down ! i don't wanna look at anyone , i was so fcuking EMBARASSED ! VERY PAI SEYH ! next time , i must really open my eyes ! O.O ! i hope i won't bumped into anyone who notice the incident . anyway , i wont take MRT from Admiralty anymore . im just gonna take at Woodlands ! =.=

but apart from the bad beginning , i had a wondeful time at the end :DDDD *insert loads of smiley faces ! met lyn , SJ , emy , nicholas & suria . haha she so kind , treat me like lil kid & sort of pamper me , lol . been a year plus since i met nicholas , he is still the same =.= btw , i have not been catching up with my other friends lately . i think there's many of them which i didn't met for a year already . just recently found them over the internet , aiya misses* must meet up soooooooooooon

so funny , so sweet of her >.<>

"she got me blushing"

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2009-08-06T21:43:00.000+08:00

cut my hair shorter , okay lah . i tried teasing & styling it just now . for the first time , my hair finally " stood up " . haha , finally it worked . guess i can't tease with thick long hair -.- school ! omg knew my maths test result . i got 24 / 30 for my mensuration test . OMG pass XD , but you know what ? this is my fcuking first time i passed a test for maths this year . haha im so pathetic . guess mensuration is the one that i kinda most good at . but hey , even last year , my sec 1 mensuration test , i got full marks okeh ! okeh wtf i must push myself harder for maths level test . science test , whoa ! cannot make it uh . i revise the wrong thing =.=

checked the calender , fasting month is coming soon , real soon . think again , it's so goddamn fast . in no time , a month's time , SA2 will be starting . i don't even think im ready for it . fasting month , then Raya . told mom i've got no mood for Raya this year . dunno why feel that way . i don't really want to celebrate Raya with family , even with friend . no mood , dunno why . im not excited about it & i somehow feel i WILL WAIT for Raya . not excited about collecting money & everything :/ hais .

mum told me just now that she wants to shift to Bedok , kimak WTFARK siah . siao . i dont want i dont want . bukit panjang & bedok , super far right ? ! then she suggested that i transfer to other school . omggggg , no wayyy . east side kids are just , erm i dunno how to describe them . but , i dont want cos i will be seriously have a FCUKING hard time making friends with the other students =.= omg , east side , no way ! too far larh . argh , alot to talk about this one . shall continue the full story in my next post =.=

ups & downs , wrong & right

2009-08-04T17:08:00.000+08:00

i miss yidah , so much . IDTH MISSES YIDAH ! lol , wtf . stop that big ass lame crap . each time i saw my old pics in phone / lappy , kinda miss my old hair . lol , anyway , gonna cut my hair shorter by end of this week . especially the back part , quite long man . right now , im eating cashew nuts & i swear it's freaking nice . i already ate 2/3 packet of the cashew nuts =.= think i need to buy a BIG packet of it to satisfy myself . errmm , i think i should say that a lot of things happen lately . too much till i forget some & don't know which to start from .

Miss Tay is back & i swear im happy :D but still kinda miss Miss Ivy , her swayyyyyy & her voice XD i still remember the first day Miss Ivy step into our class , the moment she spoke a word , most of my classmate starts to laugh their fcuking ass out ! but after a minute when the lesson begun , the whole class was quiet & stare at her . even Zi Xi " SSSHHHUUUSSSHHH " everyone who laugh or make noises :/ heh i know my class have big respect for Miss Ivy :)

tomoro is Sci & Math level test + Lit open book test . i don't think i can make it for Sci & Math . well , whatever . gonna revise whatever i could & just do my best ? Lit's Macbeth mindmap/poster if halfway done . im still left with the drawings . i don't know what to draw =.= & OMNI brand colour pencils is not GOOD ! but im still thinking of doing a new one :/ hmmm . anyways , i really need to save my money right now . i spend alot last month . i spend on things which are not in my " cravings " list . did my hair & bought a speaker ( which i should've bought first ) . total spend on those two things is ard $160 + ? i spend $115 on my hair , $35 on my speaker + my adapter & batteries for it , so nearly $50 . jeez , but havent get money for shopping this month . i hope i can save it , don't plan to buy anything yet for now .

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so complicated , very complicated .

i typed few sentences , then i

delete i again . it happens

over 3 times now .

what do i actually want ?

what do i actaully lack of ?

last rehearsal for NDP

2009-08-02T01:11:00.000+08:00

finally , malay project is finally finished . spent quite a lot of time doing the project with Norita . hah , still remember i doze off at ard 3am then Norita waited for me till 5am . SOZ ! but hey , i think our project is quite okay eventhough 20 marks were being deducted . our project story is so dramatic XD

quite a long day today . had math remedial in the morning , then off to NDP training ( last rehearsal ) whoa , next week of gonna be National Day . time flies so fast man . okay bitch i dunno what else to say here . update this for the sake of updating . ouh wait , ive got 2 things to talk about .

my hair ! yes my hair , it grows so fast ! dammit , it's only been a week plus & my hair is like , quite long . now , it looks more like concave hairstyle & not the one i want . i think i need to cut it really short so it could stay a bit more longer . if not , i cant be going to the saloon every week right ? haha wtf . but then , if i were to cut shorter again , curls would start to appear again right ? most of my NDPpeeps ask/force me to cut my hair shorter . cos it's hard to style my hair when its long . seriously , my hair at the back is too long till it's heavy & cant stay long when i have even put on ALOT of hairsprays / gel / wax on my hair . kinda regret rebonding the back of my hair , 50 bucks for it . i can buy my fav thing :/ && i also thought of braiding the right side of my hair . but if i were to "took off" the braid , my hair would be frizzy curl XD haha

last thing ! Farhana pinched my nipple & im not satisfied ! she pinched my nipple 3 times & i swear the first time she pinched it , its so pain ! it was so sudden , shocked me . argh , boobs have been smacked by many people today & i didnt manage to pinch farhana's boob :/ arggghhhhhhhhh nanti kau !

i've got 2 days of MC , XD

2009-07-30T17:43:00.000+08:00

i got 2 days of MC , YAHOOOOOOOOO ! finally skipped math , sci & MT today / tomoro . but i must be left out for maths =.= science is like a freak . i hate this teacher , & she commented on me " scary " . no other word arh ? think im an alien issit ? ! freak , she always pick on me . think i should kill her to end the story . argh lol next topic , i blogged about many times siol .

actually , i got nothing much to blog about . yesterday watched Harry Potter . okay lah , rate it 3.5 / 5 , it's not that satisfying tho . so far , i find Harry Potter & the Goblet of Fire the most entertaining one :D heeeee & erm , wanna talk about Micheal Jackson now . Okay i know im like too late to talk about him now but you'know what ? i still thinks he is NOT DEAD & is still in this world . & yet , he is more famous after he had died , wtf =.=

i feel like wanna give up on studying :/ i've got no mood / passion for studies . im getting dumb & stupid & more things are being squeezed in my brain . i can see that im the most lazy-est in my class . im totally left out . you'know like erm , all my classmate is at pasir ris then im still at choa chu kang . you know that kind of far difference ? argh , then , this teacher ( again ) did nag at me for failing this subject & i know every teacher would do that . but , when teachers nag at me for failing , it makes me have lesser courage to work harder . it's like pulling me down instead of trying to buck me up :/ why teachers dont say something like " hey , what's wrong ? why you're not doing well ? is there anything that bothers you ? do you need help ? " you know that kind of question instead of sudden screaming " YOU ARE NOT GOOD & YOU'RE SO POOR IN YOUR STUDIES ! " pfffffft . maybe i should turn to my classmate for help , instead of the teachers . && i come to school for the sake of coming to school . yeah i can tell ya that im gonna bring home a shitty result at the end of year & at the end of my secondary school life ! :X

moody

2009-07-26T16:21:00.000+08:00

hee , like boy tak ?

i kept on hitting my head when my hair starts to flatten down . ive used so much wax & it still looks flat =.= dammit . when i rebond my hair , some people say it's not that nice , when i havent rebond my hair , there's also some people who say my hair is not that nice . some prefer it to be curly & some prefer it to be straight . well , that's what we called - " people's point of view " right ? hehe . kinda moody these days , in school only . ouhmind , my personal feelings :/

took so maany pictures yesterday . went for the youth showcase at ZCC . okay lah , overall the performances are okay . too little audience , kinda pathetic . & im so lazy to upload all the pictures =.= mostly pics are the bboys doing the freezes & i just know it yesterday that they're from zhenghua , 4E'08 , lols .

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felt like im losing everyone . they have lost their trust in me . i realise they are not what i thought they were & i keep thinking they are what i always expected , but actually no . guess i live life alone now heh ? i gotta be more open & talk more with new friends . they somewhat thinks im anti-social cos i don't open up my mouth & always expect them to talk first :/ whathehell . i wanna change & that's why i change my look & everything . including a new fresh bloggie . start afresh now .