gaahh this has been going on since a few days ago . so temperamental , my mood just changes quickly . one moment i could be VERY HYPER & few seconds later , im so quiet thinking alot of things . today , i dont feel like talking to anyone . i just want to be alone ?
i just want my brother here . it's been awhile since we chat about our life . i dont want to be alone without my brother . i feel like ive been following my mother too much & i just don't feel like im FINE with my new step-father . he dont shower me with what i want like my previous step-father & my own father does .
im starting to think my mother & her BF is so pathetic , pathetically pathetic & it makes me REALLY pathetic . nice in a way , bad in a way . i just dont want to be alone without my brother .
next thing is that im left with Science edublog & english compo . ive got no mood to study . 3 more weeks , all im hoping for is a pass in english & overall . i got no goals for EOY . just dont let me freaking retain , im already glad . i dont care if i go 3E5 next year , cos im still taking the same O level paper b!tch .
i just dont want to talk to anybody else & wants to be alone for now . i want my brother home tonight , eventhough high chances he will be at his friend's place . i miss my father & brother . it's been more than 4 months since i last saw my father .
saya mahu ayah saya kembali kepada saya .
shucks im getting so lame over here . i dislike my mother for certain reasons . & definitely , im not ready for school . hmm , i want to get that kitten toy which i saw at geylang that day . i think that could be one of my best companion .
