browsed through all the photo albums in my lappy & found old oLd OLD pictures of me + others . whoa 2 years passed in a blink of an eye . i still cant believe im already SEC 3 now . omgosh i seriously fe-reak-king miss those times sia . not last year but last 2 years :DDD i had the best year when i was 13 . i serious shit hate everything when i was 14 , the only best part was SYF last year & the first half of last year .
i think i lost everything when i was 14 . i lost my charm ? ZZZZ ! i still remember i read my horoscope on one of the days & it says that MY SUNFLOWER DAYS IS OVER ! but even before reading my horoscope i notice some changes in me . not really me but something in me that makes people get to me just seem to fade away . then i think back ,
where's all the attention which i get from ALL of the people around me ?
where's all those approaches & "hi-es" from stangers ?
& whatever & whatever blah blah blahhhhhhhhh
did i change that lead me to this or is it just . . fate ? or whatever you call it .
i think i know i dont talk to other people first alot & i only expect them to talk to me first , & i think its kinda negative :/ people even said i always look stressed & give a wtf face to everyone . i notice i couldnt really talk to my schoolmates . dancemates , classmates & everyone in school , i just cant seem to communicate with them like how i communicate with my other friends & i dont freaking know why .
i actually felt really great when asyikin ask me about my life . i dont know but i feel so happy to share it . i know what people think about me & what kind of impression others have towards me & i think i just simply need to TALK .
but , im too egoistic . i expect everyone to make the first step instead of me trying at the very least to open up myself & socialize with others . i really want people to think im friendly y'know ! (OKAY WTH ME !) but i guess that's not me till you REALLY KNOW ME VERY WELL , haha .
